But, I Love Her

Part 14

Grant Pov

Is it bad that I can't get Eddie out of my mind. He's always there. His face. His laugh. His voice. His accent. His jokes. Everything. There is definitely something wrong here. But no one can help me here. None of the boys knows about this. Well, maybe Eddie does, but I sure as hell can't as him! Gaege could have some insight but I am not risking him going to Eddie. Josh and Mully would laugh and then Mully wouldn't be able to help himself, throwing a comment into a video every now and then and I'd have to scold him and make sure all out editors cut that out. It would be terrible if any of the boys knew, but even worse if the fans were told. I have barely 2 mil subscribers. I can't risk loosing people, even if some of them are homophobic. Every subscriber is worth something to me. Josh, well, it wouldn't matter if he were to loose a few subscribers since he's the most successful of us. It wouldn't bother Eddie either. But as you know, I have the least amount of subscribers out of us all. A measly 2 mil. While Eddie's hitting 5.5 and Josh is close to 10. Sure they were happy when they were at that stage, but they kept growing from it. I've been stuck here for almost a year. I don't have signs of getting bigger. But if I did this, I would have a very big chance of getting even smaller. And I might even get kicked out. I know, a crazy idea, but I could affect all of views and shit. If one of us is a "f*g" then we'll all get back lashed for it. And as much as I know this is important to like tell people, I'm not going to risk ruining their careers for something as petty as this. I can live.

Hope you guys liked it! Sorry I went a bit MIA but I'm back! Luv you all! More to come!!!!!!!!!!!!