But, I Love Her

Part 7

Grant Pov

Ok. Ok. Ok. I've decided. I'm not straight. I find Eddie attractive. And I don't know how much I love my girlfriend anymore. Wow. That's the first time I've admitted it all at once. I assume I'm bi because I've had sex with women before. But then I find Eddie attractive. So that would make me bi. But I have no idea how to tell my girlfriend. She can be very homophobic. And ... I just don't feel the same way I felt about her when I met her. I just want to break it to her lightly. But if I break up with her, she'll tell Sam. And Sam will tell Eddie. And Eddie will ask me why and I can't lie to him. Then I'll end up telling him I have a tiny fraction of a crush and then shit will hit the fan and f*ck up everything. Why do I have to be this way? And towards my f*cking best friend?! I can't just break up with her. She'll ask for a reason and I can't lie. If I tell her it's because of YouTube, she'll see right through it. But if I tell her I like someone else, she'll ask who, and I can't lie to her then. Wait, wait, wait. I could do a mixture of the 2. I like someone else and it's a fellow YouTuber. She could think it's a makeup artist or something. Wow. A whole weight just got lifted off of my shoulders. When should I tell her though? Because no time is the right time. There isn't just a planned time for like a break up. And once you do it, you can't not see the look on their face whenever you see them again. It hurts to look at. The look of someone with a broken heart. I couldn't do that to her. But I shouldn't lead her on either. Neither way is fair. I need to do it soon. Never wait because then it just hurts more. Because I'll be lying to her longer than needed. Next date night. At a restaurant. So it won't be that big of a scene. But what if some fans are there? And they see it? I could get backlash on it. I guess we'll just have to do it at home. This is going to be shit.

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