Unfair

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new person, same old mistakes - tame impala

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You woke up with your eyes puffy, your pillow slightly wet from your excessive crying. You barely slept last night because you were so busy crying a whole river over last night's events.

Your mind was a whirlwind. Memories of the past week kept repeating in your mind after the realisation that everything that that white-haired charmer ever told you was all a lie. Those sweet nothings he would whisper to you were really full of nothing. All he was selling to you was lies.

"You're mine."

Those claiming words were in your head as you cried the entire night. He said you were his but, clearly, he was with someone else.

He called her all sorts of names, baby and Liv, he wasn't shy of showing her affection (especially in front of you) and wouldn't stop showing off to Yolanda and Sai - even going to the extent of offering Sai a job which, to you, makes it seem like he's trying to win everyone over.

You're such a crybaby. Even now, tears swell in your eyes as you can't seem to let go of everything that has just happened. You can't seem to forget how important Satoru made you feel. You always longed for something like that. You longed to be wanted and that was what Satoru gave you, he gave you the importance that you hadn't received in such a lo my time.

This made you feel like a shitty friend.

Yes, it wasn't your fault, you had no idea that Satoru was with your best friend. He was selling you dreams, after all, and the only information you had regarding his dating life was that 'all his customers left satisfied' - How could you overlook that? That's definitely something a fuckboy would say.

Even after all those tears, you continued to gaslight yourself. Such a crybaby, you thought, there's no reason to be crying over this, is there? All you really need to do is just cut him off and pretend it never happened, that's all you'll have to do and everything will do back to normal, right?

Trying to convince yourself that you didn't care and could move on easily didn't work, though, because you still feel like you want him.

Your body ached for his touch, and it was so obvious when he only slightly touched you and made you forget about all about his fake loyalties. His voice directed at you was enough for you to slip back into his phony attitude and believe whatever lies he was going to tell you.

Why were you like this?

Why were you so desperate?

You barely sat up as you reached for your phone, lighting up to show you the screen.

It was 5pm.

5:27 to be exact

You really didn't sleep until the early morning and were snapped out of your laziness as soon as your phone started pinging with missed calls and messages from Nobara and other people.

Nobara <3
Hey is dinner at yours fine ?
I'll bring drinks!!!
Or are you on that diet again?? 2:40pm

R u ok??? 4:00pm

Ykw I'll come over rn
On my way!! 4:57pm