What does loving myself means?
What's the point in that when the people who suppose to love me, does not.
As a child, I had always wondered why my parents does not pay attention to me but easily does to my twin brother. They gave him the attention I had always wanted, that I always craved. That lead me purposely does something bad in order to get that recognition my brother would always receive so easily.
As I got a bit older, I realised the reason behind it. The reason why I couldn't get the attention, affection and recognition was something rather foolish.
The sole reason for neglecting my existence, was because I was not a male, I was not fit to be the heir of the company. Just because I wasn't a male.
It wasn't my fault that I wasn't born a male.
I was seated on the bench at the park, admiring the view of the sunset. Parents were getting their kids home and one by one, the park was now empty.
Adjusting my oversized black jacket, I stood up and stretched my body since I sat for too long. I've been here since the morning.
"Shiro!"
Tilting my head to the voice, I smiled, "Takashi, I've been waiting for you."
He finally stops in front of me and frowned, "How long have you been out here for? You're shaking." As he pointed out, I suddenly felt chills all over my body.
I let of a soft chuckled, "Since this morning." I hugged myself, trying to heat up my body temperature. "Anyway, let's go to the meeting. It's almost starting!"
Grabbing his slightly rough hand, I pulled him to the direction of the meeting. He firmly squeeze back my hand which made me smile.
After leading him to the place I let go of his hand and announced our arrival to the people that had gathered. "Yo." Was the only word leave my mouth and the crowds quickly bowed and greets us.
"Greetings, vice president and second squad captain!"
I made my way to the top of the stairs with Mikey and Draken who stood there. "So, what's this meeting's about?"
My eyes wandered and landed on the unfamiliar blonde boy, who was already staring at me. Suddenly, he was punched by Pah. I winced at the sight. From my point of view, that boy doesn't deserve that punch.
I almost try to stop him but Takashi were quick and stopped him from attacking the boy.
"Please forgive him, Takemichy. Pah isn't in the best mood because some gang attacked his friend and raped his girlfriend in front of him and harassed her family." Takashi explained, wanting to let the boy know the reason.
I was furious when I heard it. I couldn't wait to beat the crap out of that guy and his gang for that foul action. People like that make me sick to the core. How can they does something awful and go on with their day happily, knowing what horrible things they had done to someone who doesn't deserve it.
Mikey asked Pah about what he want and for sure, Pah wanted to get his revenge. I agreed with him. If I got this angry, I can't imagine how he must have felt.
The meeting was dismissed and all that left was a few people. "I can't wait to beat them up." I grinned.
"Same here, Shiro." Draken respond.
"Um, may I ask who are you?" The blonde boy asked meekly.
Looking at him in silent, he flinched. He must have thought he pissed me off so before he imagine something worse, I gave him a grin. "The name's Akashi Shiro. Call me Shiro!"
Without hearing his response, I turned to the rest of the people. "You guys wanna grab a bite? I've been saving up so it's my treat!"
Takashi clicked his tongue in disapproval, "Don't spend all of it! Save the money for something important!"
"But you guys are important." My answer made them blushed and they looked away awkwardly. "I don't care about anything else but you all."
I wrapped an arm around Takashi's shoulder. He tensed a little before relaxing into my embrace. "Let's go!"
So Takashi, Mikey, Draken and Baji came with me to the restaurant. Takemichy went home after bidding us goodbye.
We were having a good time, goofing off with each other and eventually got kicked out because we're too rowdy for their liking.
Moments like this was something I treasure the most and often wished that time would stops and just let me enjoy the happiness.
"I'm glad I met you guys." They stops and turned to me. I can tell they were slightly shocked and embarrassed but I still continued, "I'm glad I got to know you guys."
"C-cut it out! It's embarrassing." Baji stuttered and the others agreed.
"I mean it! I love you guys so much. You're my family. I hope that we will all be together even when we're adult! Let's rise Toman together!" All of us cheers, with our fist in the air.
"Together!"
***
The first day of school at Karasuno was quite boring. I wasn't plan on continuing my study but it seems like my wonderful father had some plans for me. He initially want me to enroll into the same school as my brother but he decided to against it because he didn't want me to ruin brother's reputation.
I'm still surprised that he even let me choose which should I enroll into.
As I was about to head to class, my phone buzz-it was a text from draken, saying that he and the others were in the abandoned warehouse to continue discussing Pah's situation.
Letting out a sighed, I groaned. I wished they could inform me beforehand so I wouldn't have attended the boring first day speech.
Putting my phone back inside my skirt pocket, I quickly changed my direction to the back of the school's building.
I climbed up the closed dumpster and jumped over the wall.
I took out my pants out of my bag and wore them before taking off the skirt. Then I wore my Toman's jacket over my black hoodie.
"Let's see, which direction is it again?"
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Fanfikce-Ongoing series- What does loving myself means? What's the point in that when the people who suppose to love me, does not. CONTAINS Manga spoiler Mature content Angst Started: 10 August 2021 Finished: N/A