Be Happy || Tokyo Revengers ||

Chapter 25

Shiro was walking around the street to get some fresh air in her favourite black hoodie and cargo pants.

On some days, she would feel empty. Whatever she did, it wasn't satisfying for her. She took drugs from Sanzu but it wasn't enough to get rid of the unwanted feelings. She tried having sex frequently with Izana and yet she still couldn't get rid of it.

Eventually, her mind keeps on wondering why Shinichiro and Baji had to die. She had involuntary killed Emma and the guilt kept eating her alive.

She huffed out, throwing away her thoughts. "Damn it. Get the hell out of my head!" She's sick and tired of feeling these unwanted feelings. "Fuck.."

She knew she's sick in the head, and her urged to hurt people keeps on piling up as she kept resisting. That's why she decided to left her friends alone so they wouldn't get hurt by her.

"Bonten this and Bonten that! Stop getting involved with them or do you wanna die?!"

She heard voices at the nearby alleyway. She saw Takemichi whose face got beaten up, leaning against the wall as he cries.

"Takemichi?"

He whipped his head around and he instantly cries when he saw her. She blinked, doesn't know what to do in the situation. "I'm so glad you're okay Shiro!!"

"What?"

"Why did you disappear on us with Mikey too. Why is Mikey the top head of Bonten?!"

Shiro tilted her head a little, she doesn't answer him as he continues, "I heard that you're the third head of Tenjiku. Tell me, why did you leave them, why did you leave Mitsuya?!"

"What's Takashi gotta do with this?" She narrowed her eyes.

"You asked what? Don't you know Mitsuya miss you a lot?! He cares so much about you! Why did you have to break his heart and leave him with Izana?!" He yelled.

"What the hell are you on about?! Breaks his heart?" She screams back. "When did I break his heart?!"

Takemichi angrily glared at the dense girl. He couldn't believe she asked the obvious, "Mitsuya love you! He's still in love with you!"

Shiro's eyes widen at his statement. Her crimson pupils began to waver, mixed emotions began to swell around her once emotionless irises.

"... What did you say?"

"Mitsuya is in love with you!"

Her hearts began to accelerate, breathing became hard as her mind went blank at the sudden information.

She remembered the first kiss she shared with Mitsuya. She remembered how safe she would always feel whenever she's close with him. The feeling she had long forgotten were now became alive as she reliving the memories with each other.

Takemichi took her silent to continue, "Even till now, he's hopelessly in love with you! So please come back to him, things will go back like before. Just take my hand and it will all be okay. Trust me." He held out his hand, waiting for her to grab it.

That's right. Whenever she got hit by her father, Mitsuya would always be there for her, not asking any questions and stay by her side. Even after Shinichiro death, he stay by her side and comfort her in his own way. He gave her a reason to keep living.

"Don't hate the situation you're born in."

He would always told her that. To keep her from going in the wrong path in life.

Tears began to flow down to her cheek, "... I.. Can't.. I love Izana.. I cant leave him." She can't leave now, it's too late. Her heart's belong to Izana. She vowed to always stay by his side in whatever he do. She couldn't betray him, never.

"But Shiro--!"

"Tell Takashi I'm sorry. My hearts belong to Kurokawa Izana. He should move on and find someone better than me."

It's the right choice. She shouldn't let her emotions get the better of her. Mitsuya doesn't deserve a sick person like her. He deserves better.

"He will forever remain as my best friend. That's all."

Shiro quickly left him hanging and went back to her house.

She burst through the door of her room, she quickly rummage through her drawers to take out drugs she had kept hidden and began eating it.

She tored the bag that contains weeds and scattered all over her room as she bathe in the scent, trying to forget Takemichi's words.

She opened bags and bags of weeds, resulting the room became thick with the scent of weeds that's enough to get high with one sniff.

She laid on her bed, inhaling the scent as she laughed out loud, tears streaming down to her cheeks.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry...Im so sorry... Please forgive me.. Takashi.."

She had laid there for over a few hours, her tears were dried and she felt empty again.

She heard the door opened and it was Izana. He was taken aback by the thick scent of weeds as he blocked his nose from inhaling too much of it. His eyes searched for his lover and there he saw her laying lifeless on her bed.

Just as he made in front of her, Shiro pulled him down onto the bed with her on top. "What's going on Shi--!"

She forced herself into him and kissed him. She want distraction, want to forget about the incident before.

Her hands gripped tightly into his hair as she kissed him roughly, their teeth crashing against each other. Izana could feel her anger through the kiss.

Izana flipped her over so he was on top. He pinned her hands above her head, trying to catch his breath. "Shiro. Calm down. What's wrong?" He gently caressing her cheek with his free hand. He's trying to control himself as he already breathe in too much of the weeds.

"... Make love with me..." Her eyes full of tears as she stared into his eyes. As if she wanted to engrave his face into her mind so she wouldn't think of anybody else. "I love you Izana. I love you so much. I love you." Repeatedly told him, like she want to remind herself on who she really love.

"I.. I need you."