𝚂𝚃𝙴𝙰𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝚂𝙴𝙲𝚁𝙴𝚃𝚂

24

Levi figured that he should have known. He really should have known that it would come to that when she had started acting so odd. When she wasn't really saying what was on her mind and when she had asked him not to see her for a few days. He thought it was odd at the time, but he didn't really make much of it. Or rather, he couldn't really think of what she might mean by that.

He just figured he should listen to her, because she usually did make smart decisions (except for a choice few of them). When he finally got the news, he wished he hadn't listened to her. It didn't even take three days until he heard some rumours about Y/N's place. People were saying there was a hell of a commotion there the night before, that they saw the military police in the place, that the MP were carrying out a whole bunch of books from her place. And they hadn't seen her in a while, too. Once Levi had heard the rumours he regretted having listened to her.

He made his way over to her house almost as soon as he heard the same rumour from about two or three people and once he got there he immediately knew that something was wrong. The door to the house was wide open and it looked like it was being demolished. He had to make sure that there were no military police officers around, before he could get into the house, but thankfully the place looked fairly empty. He just hoped that Y/N was in there when he approached it.

But once he stepped inside the door he wished that she hadn't been inside the house. He wished he had never come there, he wished he had just forgotten about her after that last night when they were together. Levi wasn't squeamish by any means, but what he saw inside the house made his blood run cold.

The entire place looked pretty much demolished. It looked like someone had broken in and stolen some books, but Levi knew that that wasn't what had happened. If the books were gone that meant that the military police got involved and that meant they were trying to cover something up. And it wasn't hard to miss what they were trying to cover up. There was blood all over the place - blood splatters on the ceiling, blood splatters on the wall, small blotches of blood on the floor and the carpet, on some pieces of furniture and finally, in the center of the room, a big pool of dark red blood.

Levi already kind of knew what to expect when he noticed the small figure laying in the pool of blood. He still was shocked when he noticed the figure lying in the pool of blood and when he realized that it wasn't just some figure, but Y/N that was lying there. He should have known that she was dead just from the sheer amounts of blood all around him, but it didn't click for him.

He was standing there frozen for a second, looking at her in shock. He had seen death before, a lot of it. He had killed people before. But this... this was something new. This was something that was never supposed to happen. At least Levi thought it was never supposed to happen. He cared about Y/N, he had loved her for so long and now she was dead? Just like that? And for what? For the government and the clergy to protect whatever little secrets they had?

It was ridiculous. And it made Levi angry. It made him so, so angry. He was angry at all those people up there, thinking their little secrets were so important that they could just go and murder people over it. Angry at the military police for getting involved in this, for just assassinating people like this if they didn't want them around anymore. Angry at Y/N for meddling around in things that weren't her business and that couldn't be more important than her life. Angry at himself for not stopping her and not stopping this from happening. He was angry at the whole world.

And then he was finally able to move again, to walk through this whole mess towards Y/N's body that was lying in a pool of blood. Levi tried telling himself that that couldn't possibly be her blood. Surely there wasn't this much blood in her body, was there? No, no, no. She had to still be alive - heavily wounded, sure. But she had to be alive, right? If she was still alive, they could easily fix this. He could take care of her, they could figure out a way to get out of this place, start new.

"Y/N! Y/N!" he called out to her once he was halfway there, almost slipping in all the blood on the floor. There was no reaction from her and it made him panic even more and it made him even angrier. Why was she not reacting? Did she not hear him? She couldn't be dead, no, no, no. There was no way she was dead. Y/N didn't look like it, but she was tough, she could deal with a lot. He had always admired that about her, how strong she was. She couldn't be dead.

"Y/N, are you okay?"

Levi knelt down next to her body, disregarding all the blood that was around him. Something in the back of his head was telling him he had to clean all of that later, but there were more important things right now. He looked down at Y/N's body. Her skin was so pale, it looked almost ghostly and her lips looked blue. And she felt cold, she felt so cold. Her body felt heavier than usual, too.

"Y/N, answer me, damn it!" he yelled at her, brushing strands of hair out of her face. He felt something wet on his cheeks, but he decided not to pay any attention to it. He held Y/N's body close to him, hoping he would feel her breath or her heartbeat or anything. But there was nothing. There was nothing at all. He knew deep down that she was dead, but he still didn't want to believe it. He didn't want to believe that she died for some trivial secrets. Maybe she hadn't even found out everything there was, because she hadn't managed to find all the relevant books or because she might not have had enough time to read all of it. It wasn't fair.

"Please. Please answer me, Y/N." he whispered, his voice suddenly sounding weak and shaky. But it didn't matter. What mattered was that he had Y/N right here, in his arms, and she wasn't responding to him.

Finally, Levi laid her back down and looked at her properly. She had cuts all over her body. Some of them were old, as were some of the bruises. A lot of them seemed to be fairly fresh. The biggest cuts were on her arms, across her belly and one long cut from one ear to her other ear. They had cut her throat. They had cut her throat and left her to die. To bleed out like some animal.

Levi heard a strange whimpering noise and it took him a while to realize that it was coming out of his own throat. He couldn't believe that she was dead. She had said it so many times that she would probably end up like her parents, being slaughtered in her own home over something trivial (at least to Levi) like books. He had never really believed her and now here he was, holding her dead body. It felt like torture to him, it really did. It felt like someone had murdered a part of him.

He glanced down at her hand and quickly noticed that she was holding something in her hand. He quickly opened her hand and found a little note that was folded up inside her closed fist. He quickly opened it up, his eyes wandering over the small and neat letters. It was clearly her handwriting. He read over the message and read over it again and again until the letters blurred in front of his eyes.

It was a letter to him. He folded it up again quickly and put it away, somewhere he knew he wouldn't lose it. He had to keep this. It would probably be the only thing he'd have left of Y/N. People would come and take her body away soon, burning it somewhere, so disease wouldn't spread more than it already was spreading. He looked back down at Y/N's lifeless body.

"Why did you have to die? Why did you have to fucking die?!"