A New Beginning

Chapter 1

Dawn

As I look at myself in the bathroom mirror all I see is a lonely mother of a 4 yr old that just lost her father and now she lost her favorite and only Uncle B is what she called him.

My poor baby and I are now lost without her daddy and now lost without her uncle and my brother. The only thing I can say she still has is her 2 grandmothers and 2 grandpas since both of my parents got remarried. She also has my best friends as her aunts so she has 3 of those.

Damn, I drop to my knees thinking about everything she has and now she has lost. My daughter Lily has lost more then any 4 yr old should have lost to soon. I'm crying in a ball in my bathroom when my best friend Kelly finds me. She pulls me into her and hugs me while I cry for myself and cry for my daughter.

A few minutes later I hear my baby girl coming into the bathroom and she cuddles into my lap and I hear her sniffling. I wrap my arms around her and hugged her to me while we cried together.

Kelly "Why don't I get y'all cleaned up so we can head over to the church and get everything rolling after that."

"Yeah, that's a good idea. Come on Lily." I say while wiping at my tears.

Lily looked up at me and nodded. She hasn't really talked much since her dad passed away.  She really only says moma and I wuv you.

I picked Lily up and we went to our room and sat her on the bed while I pulled out her black dress and her black leggings and my black dress and laid it on the bed. I bathed Lily and dressed her and laid her down for a nap.

I took a shower and finish getting myself ready and dressed. When I walked in my room I saw my baby girl looking at me. I went over to her and put her shoes on along with mine. Then left to head towards the church with Kelly.

When we pulled up to the church I saw other best friends Blake and Sammie. Then I saw my parents off to the side my dad Dave with my stepmom Susan an then my mom Sally with my stepdad Kevin. I looked back at Lily and she was looking out her side window at everyone walking by.

"Kelly, I don't think I can do this again. This is too soon to have to bury some one else we love."

Kelly "I know but it's needs to be done. Just remember that Lily feels your hurt thats why when you cry she cry's with you. You too are connected honey, everything your feeling baby girl is too."

"I know but we buried Lily's dad and my boyfriend Gab about a month ago and I'm not even fully healed over that."

Kelly "I hate to say this but lets get this on the road so we all can move forward in life. Just know that Brian will always be in your heart just like Gab will be. You will find love one day and it will be the best thing you ever did since all this sad shit happened. It will be great for you and Lilly."

"I know your right. I guess let's get this over."
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An hour later we were burying Brian in the ground and I lost it. My mom hugged me where I was on the ground. Lilly came over and hugged me to and lost it more and hugged my baby girl to my chest.

My stepdad Kevin helped me up along with Lilly because she wouldn't let me go. People gave us our space and people came up and said they were sorry for our lost.

Cole

When I found out my forever childhood best friend Brian Ashmore died in a car accident I cried and I don't cry over just anyone. Even though we don't live in the same state we did talk and almost every day. I still think it's funny how he knew I had a crush on his lil sister Dawn. Man, I'm gonna miss him like fucking crazy.

Back to the now in time I'm at Brian's dad house while everyone tells the family they're sorry they lost Brian. As I was walking through the house I passed a few friends. I heard one of Brian's friends name Amber

Amber "Why is she here?"

"Why's who here?" I ask here.

Amber "Dawn, I don't understand why she is here. Isn't she like an ex or something?"

"Really, if Brian was here to hear you talk about his lil sister like that he would be pissed."

Amber "well since that is his lil sister isn't she young to have her own baby?"

What I say in my mind and look at her. Damn, Dawn is looking pretty good for herself. Mom life looks good on her and her daughter is cute.