I'm Yours/ Doah Story

Helping

⚠️TW mental health and starving⚠️
3 months later-
Dixie's POV: Me and Noah's 3 month was a week ago! I'm so happy with him, it's getting close to Halloween and me and some of my friends are gonna do a huge Halloween collaboration, I haven't actually seen Noah since our 3 month, I haven't been myself, there has been so much hate on social media and it's really getting to me... I am slowly starting to hate myself more and more everyday... I've been taking my pills but nothing is helping, my anxiety is also really bad and I wanna see Noah but I don't want him to see me like this so I keep making excuses for why we can't hang out.. Do I feel bad? Yes.

Noah's POV:
Me and Dix have been dating for 3 months and I'm so in love with her, we haven't shared our first I love you's yet though. I know she wants to take things slow which I understand, and social media still doesn't know about us, I mean they kinda figured it out but we haven't actually announced it. I'm starting to get a little worried about Dix though. We usually hang out everyday and ever since our anniversary she keeps telling me that she's busy, and don't get me wrong she can do whatever she wants but it makes me wonder if I did something. When I ask her if I did something she just responds with a simple no. And she hasn't been herself, she... She just seems so sad. But she doesn't want me worrying about her but too late I'm worried. I really wanna go and surprise her at her apartment but I don't wanna be weird or something. Idk maybe I'm over thinking this and she is really just busy.

Dixie's POV:
I feel fucking terrible. I just read my comment section and it was filled with stuff like "Your trash, Why are they even famous, you deserve nothing, you have no boobs and are ugly, no one loves you, you should kill yourself". This tore me apart. I didn't ask for this. I didn't ask to be famous. The same people who are commenting this are the same people who liked my videos and made me and my sister blow up. They just switch up real fast... I also haven't eaten for 2 days. I'm so hungry, but I don't wanna eat... All I have energy for is to cry until I get tired and fall asleep, I really want Noah but I don't want him to see me like this. I look terrible. My apartment is trashed. I'm so ashamed...
1 month later
Dixie's POV:
I haven't eaten for 2 weeks... I don't have the energy to do anything except go to the bathroom and cry, I still haven't seen Noah, it's been almost 2 months. I feel really bad but I don't want him to see me looking like this, the other day I was only wearing a sports bra and some shorts, I looked in the mirror and my ribs poke out, and you can see my spine through my skin... It's getting really bad but I can't do it. I can't eat.

Noah's POV: That's it. It's been 1 month and a half since I've seen my baby and I miss her so much. She won't let me come over but I'm going over if she likes it or not. I got ready and drove to her apartment, I had a spare key and I opened the door, her apartment was trashed, clothes everywhere and trash. "Oh Dixie..." I said to my self, I walked into her bedroom and she was on her bed not facing me and she was crying while looking at her phone. I could tell that she was reading comments. She had no idea I was here, "Dixie?.." I said softly still at her doorway "N-Noah??" she said turning around and wiping her tears "w-what are you doing here" she asked "I came to see you... Babe.. What's going" I said sitting on her bed "I... Just haven't been myself lately" she said putting on a fake smile. "Baby I can tell when your not yourself" I grabbed her hand and I... She was so cold and her hand was so skinny... I could easily wrap my fingers all the way around her wrist. I didn't wanna say anything but when I took a closer look at her.. She was so skinny. She was wearing sweats and my sweatshirt. "I'm ok Noah I just..." she stopped talking "Dixie..." I said while pulling up her sleeve, "baby you... Your so skinny.." I said looking at her in her eyes, hers got teary, "I'm sorry" she whispered starting to cry. I picked her up to put her on my lap and she was so light. I wrapped my hands around her waist. "Baby when was the last time you did anything" I asked "Noah I h-haven't had the energy to do anything. I haven't showered in a week. I'm sorry I didn't want you to s-see me like this" she said crying, my heart sank, "come on I want you to take a shower" I picked her up and brought her to the bathroom and turned the shower on and sat her on the toilet seat."baby... C-can you go in with me?.." she asked. Keep in mind we have never seen each other naked. Ever. "If that's what you want then of course" she stood up and I could tell she was physically and mentally exhausted. So I gave her a "look" and she nodded. I took of her clothes very gently making sure she was comfortable. When I took off her sweatshirt and sweats I gave her another look to ask for permission, she nodded, so again I gently helped her take off her underwear then I unclipped her bra. She looked so ashamed as she look in the mirror. Then I looked at her body.. And I can't even explain... Her ribs poked out and I could see her spine. She was so skinny and cold. She look liked she was gonna cry while looking in the mirror. I put my hands on her waist and whispered in her ear "You are the most beautiful girl on this planet, I need you to know that" I kissed her cheek and she put her arms over her chest not letting me see her boobs. Not that I would look at them "baby if your uncomfortable then I can leave" I said to her, "no I want you. Y-you know how I'm insecure" she told me "baby your so beautiful, I don't care about boobs, and you know that" I said getting undressed, "I know it's j-just I'm so flat and it's ugly and-" I cut her off  "Dixie Jane D'Amelio you are gorgeous, and I love you for you not your body" I was fully undressed and I walked up her, I grabbed her hands and slowly pulled them down revealing her chest, I smiled at her "your beautiful" I whispered to her, we got in the shower and I put my hands on her tiny waist and she started washing herself. I was watching her do this and god dam..she is so beautiful. I didn't look below the waist because I didn't wanna make her uncomfortable. She noticed and said, "thank you for taking things slow and respecting my privacy" she said to me "of course babe" I said back to her. She continued washing herself when she said "baby I'm sorry I haven't shaved it's so ugly.. " she said to me "hey it's ok, gonna let you in on a little secret Dix I didn't shave either" I said winking at her, she let out a little giggle which made my heart almost explode. I just wanted to see her smile, once she was done washing her body I washed her hair and massaged her head. We got out and I wrapped a towel around her and I wrapped one around my waist. I brought her some clothes and sat on her couch while she got dressed, I also put some clothes on. She walked out of the bathroom looking like she was about to fall asleep. So we went into her bedroom and laid down, "Thank you for this baby" she said laying on my chest, "of course beautiful" she fell asleep and I ran my fingers through her head and thoughts started running through my head. I am so worried about her. I just wanna help. Once she fell asleep I carefully got out of bed and cleaned her apartment and did the laundry. I then climbed back in bed and cuddled with her. My little baby.

Dixie's POV: He got in the shower with me. He told me I was gorgeous. He respected my privacy and kept his eyes above my waist. He didn't make fun of my body. He undressed me making sure I was comfortable. He cuddled me until I fell asleep. How did I get so lucky?? I can't believe I was worried that he would judge me. He was the perfect guy and treated me like his princess, I love him so much, about 2 hours after I feel asleep I woke up and there he was, looking down at me smiling, I gave him a light smile back. "Hello sleeping beauty" he said to me "hi" I said back "baby when was the last time you ate" he asked me. I froze "u-um... 2 weeks ago..." I responded, his eyes widened "What?? Dixie why haven't you ate?" he asked me "Noah the hate really got to me... Everyone was saying how ugly I was, so I stopped eating.." I said to him tearing up "babe no wonder your skinny" he got up and went to the kitchen.

Noah's POV:
She hasn't eaten in 2 weeks! I immediately got up and went into the kitchen, I made her some soup and got a bottle of water. I went back into her room and she sat there with tears in her eyes. I sat on her bed and had her drink some water. And I fed her a couple spoons of soup. After about 5 spoonfuls she said "baby I'm sorry I can't do anymore" I was sad that she felt like she couldn't do anymore. So I put the soup in the fridge then laid next to her and said "I'm proud of you" and I kissed her head, "your the best" she said to me. "Do you still wanna do the Halloween collab. It starts next week?" I asked her "yeah I think I can do it" she responded
After that we cuddled and fell asleep again.