i think i kinda love you

chapter 4 | right by the front doors

by now, it was around 3:50. emma and i were still on facetime as i was doing the finishing touches on my hair and makeup. we both decided that i'd be better off wearing concealer, mascara and some highlighter because heavy makeup isn't super fun and plus, i didn't know what billie and i were doing tonight. so for hair, i did beach waves and to be safe, i'm wearing denim overalls with a white shirt underneath once again considering that i'd have to be ready for whatever she's planning for tonight. 

"hey em i've got to go. she could text me any minute now." 

"okay. FUCK I'M SO EXITED FOR YOU!" she said screaming. 

"bitch i'm so nervous it's billie motherfucking eilish. i feel like i'm not worrying enough but at the same time, i'll find myself overthinking every potential scenario that could happen tonight. but like overall? i'm beyond exited."

"you'll do great evy. plus, she was the one that asked for your number. she's clearly interested in you." she states. 

"that's true but wow am i ever nervous." 

"you'll be fiiiiiiine." she says dragging the i's in "fine".

"i really hope so." i said doubtfully. 

"ok but emma i really do have to go. i wanna be ready to legit sprint when she texts me."

"YES GOOO!" she says in pure excitement. 

call ended.

emma and i have been best friend since preschool and i love her dearly but lately, we've been distant with each other because she and i are in different states. i'm in cali pursuing my onlyfans career and she's at duke university in hopes to become a neurosurgeon. i feel like we love each other and always will but the both of us have had so much going on in our lives that it's been hard to keep up with one another. 

enough about me and emma cause damn i overthink so often i really need to get out of the habit of thinking about every single detail.

in a rush, i looked back glancing at my room making sure i got everything i needed and to double-check, i looked in my tote bag too. portable charger, hair ties, wallet and essentials bag? check. perfect. i made my way to my hallway eagerly awaiting a text from billie. it had been a few minutes since i sat down on the mini-couch i had beside my door. i began looking around my house admiring how freaking pretty it is and soon enough, i hear my phone buzz.

bil<3

hiii

i'm in front of the building if ur not ready i can park and come in if u want :))

sent at 3:58 pm. 

she wants to.. COME IN?! okay wait, let's let her in after we go out. 

maybe after i got all pretty to go out not to stay in ;)

i'm omw downstairs now

sent at 3:59 pm.

i really hope i didn't bum her out by saying no. i feel like she would've loved to see my place before we went out. nonetheless, i was on my way! the elevator felt like forever but i finally made it to the main lobby. i looked around for a little bit but couldn't find her inside so, i made my way outside, looked around but had no luck so my last guess was to go to the visitors parking lot. she's not there???

heyy

i can't find u

where did u say u were again?

sent at 4:11 pm. 

right in front of the building 

i'm in a matte black dodge challenger 

u look gorgeous btw ;)

sent at 4:11 pm.

okok i'm coming

wait

how would u k what i look like u haven't seen me yet?

read at 4:12 pm.

i made my way up to the front of the building as i was overthinking why she left me on read. better yet, how she knew what i looked like since the last time i talked to her. minus the fact that i was super confused, i'm still thinking about how crazy it is that billie freaking eilish wants to hang out with me. like this angel of a woman fully wanted my number. she's cute. 

finally, i made it up the stairs leading me to the front of the building where i saw her in her challenger. she was looking down, probably on her phone. i walked up to the car and knocked on the passenger seat side and her face lit up. awh. 

she unlocked the door and smiles in a comforting way. 

how is it that with her i feel so safe? 

i let out a small "hi" and she followed back with a "hey."

"so billie, what are we doing tonight?"

"ok first off, you can call me bil i like it more and second, i was thinking we could have a cute picnic dinner and if you're down, we could watch a movie under the stars. i brought my laptoooop." she says. 

thank god because her contact name on my phone was "bil<3".

"bro that's the sweetest i'm super down. i'm glad we're doing this. and by the way since we're on the topic of nicknames, my friends call me ev or evie" i said smiling at her. 

she chuckles. 

"so listen, i NEVER do this because i like to keep the relationships between me and my fans strictly friendly and nothing more but ever since i first saw you in the crowd yesterday, i can't stop thinking about you. everything about you literally captivated me so, i got my shit together and asked u out because like.. you're perfect dude." she said as she paid most of her attention to the road minus the few glares she managed to sneak in.

i let out a chuckle.

she's so fucking sweet.

"but listen, it's fair for you to know before anything happens.. i get pictures taken of me like all the time and if you're not cool with the paparazzi, i get that just let me know." she said in a sadly.

"bro are you joking?? i'm perfectly fine with paparazzi. i fucking love what you do but i know that shit comes with a price. i don't mind at all." i said reassuringly.

she smirks a little, visibly cheering up.

"before you say anything back, i wanted to ask you. how did you know what i looked like before even seeing me today?" i ask.

"HAHAAAA! i saw you walk around the lobby a couple of times looking for me. when you got outside, i was sure you were going to see me so i stayed put because i was curious if you'd actually notice me. you literally walked right past my car. twice." she says cackling. 

"fuck you dude!" i said as i playfully slapped her arm. 

after a little while, we finally got to where she planned we'd be. wow, this place is stunning. it was an open field full of little colourful flowers. she parks the car on a shorter patch of grass and opens the driver's side of the door taking out a picnic basket in one hand and in the other, she carried her laptop and her blanket. how cute.