I don't ever want to lose my bestfriend. [Tony Perry]

Chapter 7~ Fuck money we want love

[Carmen]

We arrived to San Diego at about 10 p.m.

“Babe, wake up.” I said pushing on Tony’s shoulder. He wiggled around and finally realized we landed.

“Thank god all this traveling is done for a little while.” He said smiling,

“I agree, now you’re all mine.” I giggled.

We walked together to pick up our luggage and then loaded it in the rental car to take home.

“Hold on, I gotta say bye to the other guys!” I said pulling away from Tony.

He rolled his eyes, “You just saw them, and they’ll probably be over later!”

“I don’t care, wait for me please.” I smiled.

I ran back in the find my brothers and Jaime.

“BYE GUYS.” I said kissing their faces.

“Ew sissy germs.” Mike said wiping his face.

“Oh shush, Let me know when you guys are going to see Mom and dad, Love you!” I said waving while running back outside.

“You done now?” Tony asked pulling away.

“Yes crabby butt.” I replied sarcastically.

When we got home I threw all of our tour clothes into the laundy room. I walked back out to find Tony sitting in the living room with his hands folded.

I walked over to him and sat on his lap to kiss him but he pulled away.

I looked at him weirdly. “Everything okay Tone?” I asked.

He shook his head. “No, not really Carmen. Sit down. I need to talk to you.”

I scooted off his lap and sat next to him. “Whats up?”  I asked.

He took a deep breath in and exhaled. “I don’t think we’re going to work out Carmen, I miss how we were when we were bestfriend, yanno?”

My heart sunk, I didn’t know what to say. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. “I-i-okay tony.” I said running off to the bed room.

I heard him walking into the room. “What do you want Tony.” I sobbed inbetween breaths.

“You’re still my bestfriend, I just don’t think now is the time you know?” He said patting my back.

  I snapped up. “NOT THE TIME? BUT IT WAS TIME WHEN YOU TOOK MY VIRGINITY, RIGHT TONY?” I suddenly got white in the face.

He stared at me for a minute. “Im sorry Carmen, Im going to go now… I’ll see you soon?”

“Bye.” I said and slammed my head into a pillow.

I laid in bed for the rest of the night crying. I don’t even know what I did wrong for him to leave me.

I decided to call Jenna and have her come over.

“Jenn?” I said as she answered

“Hey sweets, how are you?”

“Im not great, actually. Can you come over?”

“Im sorry I can’t, Im in Europe babes.”

I sighed. “Alright, love you.” I said and ended the call.

I started crying even harder than before, I couldn’t handle this. I got up and walked to the bathroom where my razors were. I hopped up on the toilet so I could reach above the cabinet. Tony hid them from me, but I was smart enough to know where they were.

As tears were falling down my face I dragged the blade across my thigh leaving a pretty big mark. I sobbed harder and looked at the blood flowing from my legs, suddenly everything got dark.