THE WHITE ROSE PAINTED WITH BLOOD

xxxvi - after she saw him all the stars in her sky exploded

[ 2 years ago ]

the hallway like a tunnel
of color / splashes of pink,
neon green, and gold / her
blue jeans and rose red
trench coat blending in / to
become part of the rainbow
/ so she could be mixed into
the recipe called school /
just a chameleon fading into
the background / for some-
times going with the flow is
the easiest way to get to the

other

side

for her, it was like watching
faces over the windowpane
of a subway train / watching
them as their lips blossomed
into lopsided smiles / watch-
ing as their faces blurred in
mid-laugh / watching eyes
with colors beginning with
all the letters of the alphabet /
watching conversations
evolve and

bloom

and die

for her, it was like watching
through a pane of glass /
seeing everything never
experiencing / feeling the
energy and emotions mixed
in the room and knowing
hers would never be

like

theirs 

-[ 🌙 ]-

she

knew

she

would

never

belong

here

-[ 🌙 ]-

before she saw him the world was a black and white blur and she was on the edge, holding on but always  s l  i   p    p     i      n       g  away

before she saw him all the c  o   l    o     r     s she saw with her broken eyes were coated with a grayscale filter

before she saw him her body was consumed with plastic and she could not breathe or feel her legs and all she could do was watch as everyone laughed and acted as if there were no monsters under the bed anymore, w a  t   c     h  as they bloomed like sunflowers in the rain while she drowned in torrents of colorless blood

before she saw him she was just another new student  d r  o   w    n     i      n       g  in a river of raincoats and umbrellas in the school hallway  

before

s
h
e

s
a
w

h
i
m

-[ 🌙 ]-

after she saw him

all 

the stars

in 

her sky

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