Sylki Moments

Mistake thoughts

Sylvie POV:
I stabbed him. That's it, right? My glorious purpose what ever Loki wants. I just did it why do I feel like this??  I should be happy! Glad I got my revenge. Something I always wanted as a child. Why didn't this make me feel better?

I look around what was I missing? I touch my lips. oh, him of course. Of course it was him. He made me feel like I could do anything with him. I may never have grew up with a home and he never felt home in the place he grew up with but he felt like home to me.

Thinking of him made me feel bruised, feeling like I been Stabbed in the heart with something. My legs gave out and all I felt was guilt. Nothing else ran through my head other than guilt and pain. I wasn't wounded but it felt like I was.

Did I make a mistake? Should I have listened to Loki? Did I hurt him? The  last thought hurt me. I didn't want to hurt him I wanted him to be safe. That's why I sent him away I didn't want to hurt him not in anyway. 

The look on his face before She sent him through portal. He even tried to hold me again.
(" you don't know what you want.")
Sylvie remembers telling him that on lamentis. He had told her what he wanted but now she doesn't even know what she wants.

Now she wanted him but would he want her now? He probably feels hurt for me pushing him away.  I may not die from anything else but I will die from my guilt. It feels like it's eating me inside out.

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Loki's POV:
She probably already killed Kang. I know what if feels like once you get your glorious purpose, It's just a big lie.

("This whole thing been a con?"
"Really?")

("What was the point.")

("Is that what you think of me?)

(" I've been where you are.")

("After all this time.")

("But I'm not you.")

("Evil Loki's master plan comes together..")

("Sylvie,Sylvie,...stop.")

("You never trusted me did you?..")

("I felt what you feel.")

("Is I don't want to hurt you.... I don't want a throne... I just....-")

("I felt what you feel")

("But I'm not you.")

("Don't ask me how I know.")

("I just want you to be okay.")

("Take your throne!"
"no....")

(What was the point?.")

("Ah you want the throne.")
These thoughts hurt. Sylvie thinks I was using her for a throne, She thinks I'm lying, and doesn't even trust me.

I know she needs me right now....I just can't get back to her.

("Sylvie...Sylvie....")

I could still feel her lips on mine. Oh how I wanted more than one. To just hold her again....

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Something just to practice my writing before school because My grades in reading was *cough* Not more than a 40 I'll tell you that. IM NOT DUMB I JUST SUCK AT THE WRITING SUBJECT yk Reading & writing. I Can do reading. But writing ducking SUCK AT IT.