We Come For You

Morph

Can't stop thinking about if and when I'd die
For now I see that 'if' and 'when' are truly different cries
For 'if' is purely panic, and 'when' is solemn sorrow
And one invades today, while the other spies tomorrow

I can't stop thinking about it. I keep thinking about the possibility - if. No, it's going to happen one day, that's when I worry most about it. What happens if I die one day? What happens when I die? I know these are two different things, everyone only fears one of them, usually. Still, it's easy to panic when you think about it, but maybe it's not that. Maybe I just know, yes, I know I'm going to die. But it's because I know it that I see it happening, I see myself dying but thinking about it is the best way to ruin it.

We're surrounded, and we're hounded
There's no 'above, ' or 'under, ' or 'around' it
For 'above' is blind belief, and 'under' is sword to sleeve
And 'around' is scientific miracle, let's pick 'above' and see

They are everywhere, all these emotions surround us, they sometimes push us to choose. You can't dodge them, you can't go above or under or around them. Those who choose above blindly believe that someone, or something, will come to save them. Those who choose to go under are the ones who give up, they simply give in to temptation. Those who decide to go around the problem rely entirely on science to preserve their bodies. So what to choose, to believe in a superior being, to ask him for help, but for what exactly? To be with him? For love? Out of fear? To give up? No. To let a miracle of technology take care of it? No. It would be best to reconsider before choosing.

For if and when we go 'above, ' the question still remains:
Are we still in love, and is it possible we feel the same?
And that's when going 'under' starts to take my wonder
But until that time, I'll try to sing this...

I still don't know which way to go. What will be the best choice? Should I leave 'above' to see what 'under' looks like? I don't know anymore, I don't know if I still love it, I who have loved it all my life. What does it really mean to go 'under'? Is it to abandon everything around us, all these bad thoughts? I don't want to go on with my thinking now, I have to go on doing what I love first. Let me try to express this...

If I keep moving, they won't know
I'll morph to someone else
What they throw at me's too slow
I'll morph to someone else
I'm just a ghost
I'll morph to someone else
Defense mechanism mode

I will change, adapt. I will continue to fight and wait until the time is right to choose instead of deciding now. I will try to be better and to know how to behave in the best way according to the situation. I will try to change before it hurts me too much. I'm going to do everything I can so that they don't come after me. I'm going to change, I'm going to shed my skin and become someone else before I have to choose. It's hard to distinguish me, it's hard to grasp me but it's just a way to protect myself...

He'll always try to stop me, that Nicolas Bourbaki
He's got no friends close, but those who know him most know
He goes by Nico
He told me I'm a copy
When I'd hear him mock me, that's almost stopped me
Well we're surrounded, and we're hounded
There's no above or a secret door
What are we here for
If not to run straight through all our tormentors?
But until that time I'll try and sing this...

Even though Nicølas Bøurbaki tried to find out if there is an 'above' or not, I won't give up that possibility.
Nico is the Bishop hovering over my consciousness, he is the one who constantly reminds me of who I am. I am Blurryface and Nico is my Bishop. He is the one who stalks me and I will have to deal with him because he knows how to get to me. To someone who doesn't know Dema, he's no different than the other eight, but to me, he's still the most dangerous, he's still the master of the silent tricks. He reminds me of my lack of confidence by making me doubt. He tells me that I am a copy, but I am original. I'm original in content as well as in form. He tries to prove that I am like him, that I am only the worst side of myself, that I will never be better. Nico is strong but I still manage to go on, I fear his mockery as he fears that I will succeed in destroying him.
The feeling of emptiness is there, as if there was no 'above', it doesn't mean that there isn't, just that we can't know.
It's enough to go forward against the current of others, those who doubt me, those who don't trust me. It's what you always have to do, it's normal, it's life. Before I fight, let me try to express this...

If I keep moving, they won't know
I'll morph to someone else
What they throw at me's too slow
I'll morph to someone else
I'm just a ghost
I'll morph to someone else
Defense mechanism mode
I'll morph to someone else

I will change, adapt. I will continue to fight and wait until the time is right to choose instead of deciding now. I will try to be better and to know how to behave in the best way according to the situation. I will try to change before it hurts me too much. I'm going to do everything I can so that they don't come after me. I'm going to change, I'm going to shed my skin and become someone else before I have to choose. It's hard to distinguish me, it's hard to grasp me but it's just a way to protect myself...

Lights they blink to me, transmitting things to me
Ones and zeroes, ergo this symphony
Anybody listening? Ones and zeroes
Count to infinity, ones and zeroes

I'm surrounded, and I'm hounded
There's no 'above, ' or 'under, ' or 'around' it
For 'above' is blind belief, and 'under' is sword to sleeve
And 'around' is scientific miracle, let's pick 'above' and see
For if and when we go 'above, ' the question still remains:
Are we still in love, and is it possible we feel the same?
And that's when going 'under' starts to take my wonder
But until that time...

I receive messages, emotions that sing in my mind. I send my messages but no one seems to hear. I want to get out of here, back outside.
They are always around me, Nico takes all these thoughts to me. There's no way to escape them. 'Under' is accepting it, 'around' is overcoming it, and 'above' is asking for help but in this case, the problem is not solved.

I'll morph to someone else
I'm just a ghost

If I keep moving, they won't know what
I'll morph to someone else
What they throw at me's too slow
I'll morph to someone else
I'm just a ghost
I'll morph to someone else
Defense mechanism mode
I'll morph to someone else

If I keep moving, they won't know
I'll morph to someone else
Defense mechanism mode
I'll morph to someone else

Not done, not done, not done
Josh Dun

I will change, adapt. I will continue to fight and wait until the time is right. It's not done yet, I'm still me. I need help, come and get me. I need you. Josh.