𝐞𝐧𝐡𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

p. jongseong : 10:32 am ( f )

wc : 0.5k
note : i wrote this awhile ago when i had a very disturbing dream so reader discretion advised !!
warning : mentions of rape & sexual assault

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words could not describe how grateful you were for jay at the moment. between the man staring you down and the growing uneasiness in the bottom of your stomach, you were glad that his hand was in yours, the weight of it keeping you steady.

you swallowed the lump in your throat, eyes scanning the subway car you were in, desperate to not make eye contact with the old man that had been watching you in the near-empty space.

with your head on jay's shoulder, you let your eyes finally stop on yours and jay's shoes, trying to distract yourself by counting the shoelaces or deciphering where a smudge of dirt had come from.

jay noticed your anxiousness as soon as he felt your knee begin to bounce against his, taking in the way you were pressed against him like he was your lifeline.

muttering your name, jay looked at you, his eyebrows furrowing in both confusion and concern. "what's wrong?"

you lifted your head from his shoulder as you tried to muster up the right words for your explanation.

"um, do you remember that movie i said i watched a few days ago?" you began. jay nodded, urging for you to continue. "well, i ignored the warning in the beginning about sexual violence, like a fucking idiot, and i ended up watching like three girls get raped, so i've been on edge about every man i see that's not you. plus that weirdo over there has been drilling holes into me since we got on the subway."

you tilted your head in the direction of the man that sat in the corner, watching as jay's eyes moved, his expression starting to harden.

your boyfriend didn't say anything as he let go of your hand and suddenly stood, moving his body in front of the seat you sat in. he grabbed the handrail above him, glancing over his shoulder and throwing the man a warning look before looking down with you. "there. now he can't see you anymore."

looking up, you took his free hand, rubbing your thumb over the back of his palm. "thank you."

"why didn't you tell me sooner? about the movie and that guy over there, i mean. i noticed you'd been a little more clingy than usual but i didn't want to pry," jay said, taking a half step forward.

"i just...it seemed like something stupid and i made the mistake of watching it when we both know i'm not very good with things like that-"

"it's not stupid," jay interrupted. "you're scared and you have every right to be after watching something like that."

you couldn't find the right words to reply, so instead, you rested your forehead against jay's body with a sigh.

letting go of your hand, jay strokes your hair before saying, "and just know that you don't have to be afraid when i'm here, alright? i'll never let anyone touch you."