Fill Me In

Chapter Twenty

Today's the day.

I'm leaving in half and hour and it doesn't seem real. The cab is going to be here soon and we have to leave for the airport.

Austin and the other boys have been over every single day and now we're just sitting around. There is so much I want to say. So much I want to do, but I can't really do anything to make it any easier to leave.

I said goodbye to the other boys yesterday. They understood that I needed more time and alone time with Austin.

I did everything and I mean everything i could to try and stay here with Austin. I promised to get a job and help pay for things, I wouldn't ask my dad for any money ever but nothing worked.

I'm going to California and there's nothing I can do about. I have to leave Austin behind and I don't when I will be able to see him again.

My dad told me that I should just end it now. Because long distance is never going to work and I should just end it know.

I know thats what he wants. I love Austin and Austin loves me. He loves me. Why would we end it?

"Call me as soon as you land?" Austin asked quietly, ripping me out of my thoughts which have been taking over my thoughts since I found out we were moving.

"Austin." I sighed, "it's going to be 4am."

"I don't care Emily." He said sternly, "you have to promise me your gonna call because I'm not going to be able to sleep until I know you got there safe. Please call me baby."

I slowly nodded and looked down at my fingers as it became harder to look at him knowing I wasn't sure when the next time I will see him.

"Austin." I whisper, "I don't wanna go."

"Baby." He sighed, "I'm gonna come and visit okay? We just have the rest of senior year."

"Then what?"

"Then..." He said and his lips curved into a smile, "I'm going to pick up in California and the it's just you and me and we can go wherever you want to go."

"Promise?"

"I promise my love." Austin said kissing my softly, "I promise."

"I love you so much." I cry softly and throw my arms over his shoulders and lifts me up and holds me in his arms.

"Hey hey hey." He whispered, pulling back and staring into my eyes inches away from my face, "don't cry princess. I'm gonna see you soon remember? We just have a few months left. Then graduation then it's just you and me."

"That's so long Austin." I say looking back down at the floor.

"Baby look at me. Look at me." He said holding my face in his hand and making me look in his eyes, "I love you. You love me. That's all the matters and then the next thing you know we are going to be together again. And I'm visiting, don't forget about that babe."

I smiled softly and I lean to kiss him but right when I do there was a loud honk coming from the driveway and my heart instantly stops.

"The cabs here." I whisper breathlessly, ".... Austin."

He lifts me to my feet and smashes his lips onto mine and holds me tightly. Soft sobs began to leave my lips as he held me.

"Please don't forget me."

"I'm never going to forget you baby." Austin whispered kissing me softly and squeezing me tightly again before setting me back onto my feet.

He intertwined my fingers with his and he grabbed onto some of my bags and loaded them into the cab.

My dad loaded into the front seat of the cab and rolled down the window, "get in the car Emily it's time to go."

I slowly nodded and wrapped my arms around Austin again and he smashed his lips onto mine.

At first I held back, knowing my dad was there but then I ignored it. Knowing that it was going to be awhile until I saw him again.

"I love you Austin." I whispered.

"I love you more Emily. I love you so much princess." He replied and softly kisses my lips, "see ya later?"

"See you later." I said forcing a smile.

He opened the car door for me and pressed a kiss onto my forehead before I sat down in the cab and soon it drive away.

I turned around and watched as I saw Austin get smaller and smaller... Until I couldn't see him anymore.

I laid out in the back of the cab and began to sob. I don't care what my dad or the dumb cab driver thought.

I'm going to be going to be halfway across the country from my boyfriend. The person I care about more then life itself.

I love Austin.

I don't think I can go on without him.

***

"Hi Austin." I whisper as I sit in my new bedroom which is completely foreign to me, "I just got.... 'Home'. "

"I'm glad your okay baby." He said back, "how are you feeling?"

"Lonely."

"The boys miss you." Austin said, "I miss you..."

"How much longer till you come and visit?" I chuckle sadly and he laughs.

"I'm already saving up princess."

"I need to go Austin... My dads making me go school shopping tomorrow."

"Your already going back?"

"Yeah... He wants me to go back to being a perfect student..."

"Your perfect to me." He whispers into the phone.

"I love you Austin." I randomly blurted, "can we Skype tomorrow night?"

"Of course." He said and I could practically see his smile, "and I love you too beautiful."

"Bye Austin..."

"Bye Em."

I sighed as I plugged in my phone and laid in my new bed. I grabbed onto my pillow and held onto it tightly as for the first night of many... I'm crying myself to sleep.