Time Tells

On Whose Blood....

I was feeding Dave when Della started crying, she too was hungry. Saul wasn't around, he had gone to kill animals to provide blood for Della. I placed Dave in his bed and carried Della. I tried to stop her from crying but she wasn't stopping. I placed her near her brother so that I could call saul to hurry up. When I came back, Dave was now crying and Della was quiet. I carried Dave quickly and made him keep quiet but when he kept quiet, Della started crying and Saul was really delaying. I had no other option but to give her to feed using my blood. I cut my hand so deep and brought her feeding bottle and pressed my hand so that it could flow in it. It wasn't enough yet, I cut my other hand and filled her feeding bottle with blood. I started giving her to drink and she was very happy and kept quiet. I was also happy that she was feeding and had kept quiet. When she was done, I made her sleep and she slept and so did Dave.

I waited for Saul to come back so l sat near my babies. When he arrived, he brought in a fridge and when I approached and looked inside it, there were sackets of blood.
            "Has Della slept so that she feeds because I know she is really hungry" , said Saul removing one sack.
          " No need she has slept, she has already fed" , I tried not looking at Saul's face.
           "What did she feed on Ella?" , Saul snapped
            "On blood, what else" , I said moving away from there.
          "  On whose blood, Saul walked after me. Then he faced me around and started checking my body and then he saw my both hands. You cut your self" , he wisphered, he was angry.
             "She was really hungry and she started making Dave uncomfortable, so what did you think I would do?".
          " I don't allow anyone to make you get hurt if it's not me, even though my own child" , Saul said with a harsh tone and he threw the sack of blood he was holding.
            "Saul, calm down, the children have just slept, don't wake them up. Saul am a mother and I can move through fire for them".
             "And I won't allow you to walk through fire for them, nothing will ever hurt you as long as I am here".
            "That is what a mother does" , I shouted at him. I had never raised my voice at him that way.
He walked outside the house and never came back till midnight. I was worried, where could he be. When he came, he was looking terrified. I ran and hugged him but he was not hugging me back. I looked at him and he walked away. I caught his hand to stop him but he removed his hand. When I checked my hand, there was blood.
              "Are you bleeding?" , I ran and took his hand and the other, did he cut himself.
I made him sit and brought a cloth to clean up.
              "What's wrong with you, you can't disappear and come back in this condition" , I said starting to cry.
               "Why are you now crying? , said Saul. Ella, I said that I don't want to be the one making you always cry".
              "  How can't I not cry when you are acting like that".
              " Ella, I just don't want you to get hurt for some reason".
               "Okay, I promise I won't do that ever again, will you forgive me?".
             "  I will forgive you unless you let me take care of you in a satisfactory way" , he said pulled me close to him.
He touched my face and tied my hair in a messy way. How could he change his mood very fast, from angry to teasing. I loved it when he says that.
              " I look crazy like that, stop messing my hair" , I stopped him.
              " And that's what I want, you should look crazy for me, be crazy for me and act crazy for me alone" , he said again messing up my hair.
           "You shouldn't call a crazy person crazy because they will turn wild" , I said pushing him to the wall.
              " Oh did you get hurt, did I hurt you?" , I said laughing softly
                "I love it when you hurt me, it looks like you are seducing me", he smiled removing his shirt.
               "Oh my God, how do you turn everything into seducive, I said coming closer to him. So if hurting you is seducive so what about this?",l pushed him far away from me.
I slowly removed my blouse and touched his name in my chest, then I started removing my trousers and I stood there in just a bra and a pantie. He ran fast and pushed me to the other side of the wall.
               " So how did you like that tough guy?" , I said
He looked at me and walked away. I stared behind his back. He turned around and looked once last look at me.
          "You are not that attractive, he looked at me. My advice, wear back your clothes, you look better in them" .
         "What did you just say, am not that attractive" , I said feeling a strike in my heart.
          "Have you ever seen yourself in the mirror ? , you look like...., I can't describe you" , he said sitting in the chair.
I looked at him heartbroken, I turned to wear my clothes angrily , I felt like the ground should swallow me. He walked towards me and caught my waist and turned me to face him.
             "Why are you touching me?, didn't you say am not worth you" , I said dropping a tear.
            He kissed my eyes and kissed me. I tried to push him but he refused to stop kissing me. He looked at me and his face was not telling me that everything was fine.
            " I love you more than anything and I can't believe that you said your not worth me. Am nothing without you" , he said pressing me so tight on him.
          " You pissed me out with your words, are you tired of me" , I said looking away.
            "I can't get enough of you and your body, I fall in love with you everytime your near me".
         " So am I seducive enough for you" , I said shyly.
          "Your more than just seducive, your amazing and you know what I love about you, is you yourself, My black apple".
           " I love you more and more than you can imagine because am your imagination ".
           "So let's better start something because I can't leave this body waiting for me",he said looking at my bare body.
He carried me to the chair because we couldn't go upstairs, the kids. We started kissing but when I faced the other side, Della was lying on the floor "awake" . I pushed Saul and run to her.
                 "How did she get here?" , I asked looking at Saul worriedly.
                 "Ella, something is wrong with her and I have been thinking that if she hurts you or to Dave anymore , we take her to my dad and he keeps her in devil's dell.
               " Are you saying that I abandon my own child, Saul? ", I said crying.
                "You are not abandoning, we shall visit her every day and every time and besides dad knows how to care for her more than we can do".
                 "I won't ever think of abandoning my duties as her mother just because she is different" , I said taking her upstairs to her bed.
I made her sleep again and went back to Saul who was sitting looking at space.
              "Saul, let's forget about what happened now, I said sitting on him. Let's finish what we started".
  I looked at him waiting for him to start something but he just sat in his position. I kissed him and caught his neck.
           " Ella, what are you doing?" he said stopping me.
             "Am doing what am doing, can we forget, am dying here" , I said looking at my bare body and kissing him again.
And that was it, he kissed me back. He pushed us and we were laying in the couch. He removed his pants and mine too. He fixed himself and started moving inside me. I started feeling pain, not the pleasure pain but the hurtful pain.
              "Saul, stop it, your hurting me alot" , I said breathing heavily.
He quickly removed himself and looked at me.
          "Sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you at all", he said worried.
          " No I don't think it's your fault. Maybe it's because when I was pushing out Della, she scratched me" , I said remembering.
          "She what! , you see what am telling you, from the moment she first came, she brought you only pain" said Saul angry.
           " She's my daughter and I don't care if she hurts me because it's not her intentions" .
Saul got angry and went upstairs to the room. I followed him walking slowly because I was of course in pain. He entered bed and covered himself. I climbed also on bed and extended to his side.
             "I love her and I know that you love her too, we just need to be good parents and we shall learn to handle her" , l kissed his neck and turned to sleep.