Time Tells

Burn Her Alive........

Della, was really becoming harmful to both me and Dave. I was downstairs with Radev and Clara when I heard the kids crying. I quickly ran to their room only to see that Dave had fallen from his bed. How did he fall down, I had no idea.
              "Maybe he slipped from the bed" , I consoled myself.
             "But that's not the case Ella, snapped Radev. Am pretty sure that it has something to do with Della" , he looked at me.
              "Admit it Ella, Della will always remain your child, whether with her grandfather or you, said Clara. Maybe Saul was right" .
           " It's not like that, Della and Dave can't be seperated. When she grows up what will she think of me abandoning her at a young age?", I said starting to cry.
           " Ella, she will understand that it was for the safety of her and her brother and you too", said Radev.
I stared at Della and Dave, my precious little kids. Which monster would separate you two from one another?. I wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do.
             "I will find a solution, I said rubbing my tears. I will separate them from the same bed, each will have a different bed".
             "Do you think that will work?, asked Clara. What if something unexpected happens, what will you do?".
            "Then I will do what's right for all of us", I said.
And the separation of them from the same bed really worked. None of them shouted nor cried or even fell, but Saul was not yet satisfied with that. When Dave gets hungry, I breastfeed him then I take him around the house and sometimes outside then I make him sleep. Then comes the turn for Della, she was fine with me giving her blood from the fridge but I saw that she also wanted to be breastfed not bloodfed.
I always refused myself from trying to give her breast milk but what if she can take now. But won't it affect her because she was now used to blood than milk.

When Saul was downstairs at night, I thinking sitting on the couch, I decided to breastfeed Della. She wasn't sleeping, I sang for her but she was still awake. I didn't want to give her blood because I didn't want her to get over used to it. I carried her and sat back the couch. I untied my buttons and gave her to breastfeed. She started suckling first slowly then all  sudden when I had relaxed, she started bitting me. She caught my breast as she was still suckling and I felt a sharp pain, she cut me l with her nails.  I screamed because it was really hurting. I quickly removed her and placed her on her bed. I looked at my nipples, they were sore and blood but little started falling. Saul had rushed to the room and came to see what was going on. I covered myself quickly and lied that I was going to slip down that's why I screamed. He removed my hands and my shirt and saw my breast, very sore and the blood. He looked down at Della and he became stiff as if deciding what to do. I sat on the chair crying. I thought when I will give birth everything would be fine and I will be happy but I just don't know why it's the opposite life really sucks . I looked at Saul who was still standing and I approached him. I looked at his face and eyes and he was really angry. I knew if that wasn't his daughter, he would burn her alive.
              "I know what you want to say, I started talking, and I have no problem with that" , I said tears still dropping.
            " Ella, we will be fine, I promise dad will take good care of her?" , he finally said looking down at me.
          " Promise me that we shall always visit her and take Dave to see his sister too" .
          " I promise you, it's for the best for her, she will understand, I believe" , he kissing my head.
I looked at Della, feeling more hurt in my heart than my breast. I wanted to take good care of her and spoil her like the devil but thinks come all a sudden and ruin everything.

We went the night after to devil's dell. The devil looked very happy for the presence of his granddaughter.
           " I knew you wouldn't manage to handle her" , he said smiling.
             "Not that we couldn't manage her but it's for the good for all of us" , Saul snapped.
             "All the same, I promise I will take good care of her and I know you wanted to spoil her and it will be my pleasure to do so" , he said in a weird tone.
             "We believe that dad, we shall be coming to visit her anytime we want to" , Saul said catching my shoulders.
I was really quiet just hearing their conversations. I was like sacrificing my child to the devil. But I knew that he wouldn't hurt her but I thought she would be more safe with me.
I looked at Della, she was asleep. I looked at her like it was like the last time I would look at her.
             "Baby, I promise I will always love you and do my responsibilities as your mom. Am sorry that am leaving you here but I know you are home with your grandfather" , I said crying.
           "  Ella, she will be fine, don't talk like she's going somewhere so far away from us" , Saul said hugging me.
          "I know, she will always be my baby girl no matter what".