the sink hole of loving you //mattheo riddle

Chapter 12

"Stop" I say laughing. Mattheo ignores me and continues to nuzzle my neck. "We need to study!" "but studying is no fun" he pouts. "I'm sorry, but i don't want to fail this test" "it's okay" he says nuzzling my neck again. I sigh dramatically. "Okay fine. We can study ''''thank you ''I answer smiling. He kisses me on the cheek. "Okay. let's do this, ''Mattheo says. "Come on, you're going to ace this. You know all of it like the back of your hand '' Mattheo says 2 hours later. ''That's kind of a funny saying isn't it. Like the back of your hand. Who really knows the back of their hand that well, because if i saw a bunch of pictures of hands and i had to guess which one was mine, i don't' think i would be able to pick it out-' ' mattheo begins kissing my neck. "It would be really hard to figure out which hand was, um your, um" I sigh. "You know you make it really hard to keep my train of thought when you do that" I say. "Mhm" Mattheo says, still kissing my neck. He slowly lowers me down onto my back. I flip him over so I'm straddling him, and he looks at me with wide eyes. "I want to take control this time," I say , pinning his arms by his sides. He smirks, and I slowly unbutton his shirt, then fling it open. I kiss him on his lower stomach, and slowly move my way upwards, and along his sensitive spot on his jawline. His hands go to my thighs, moving along the side of my body and ending on my hips, digging his fingernails in. I gasp, and he sighs. "Gosh, you're so hot" he says out of breath. I continue to kiss his jawline, then move to his throat. "Come here" he says huskily. I move so I am hovering over him. "Kiss me" he's out of breath again. I decide to give him a taste of his own medicine, and hover my lips over his, so he can feel me breathing. "Claire" he growls. I crash my lips onto his, and he kisses me hard. He pulls me by my hips and flips me over. "Gosh I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you." he says, kissing behind my ear. I trap my legs around him and flip him over, so I'm straddling him again. He growls again. Not sure what his thing with growling is, but it's kinda hot. I pin his arms down by his sides again, then start kissing his neck. His chest. His abs. His jaw. His throat. Everywhere. I let go of his arms, and run them along his bare chest. He takes this advantage, and flips me back over. He smirks at me, and then sits up to get off the bed. I grab him and pull him back down, straddling him again. I smirk like he did, and then quickly attempt to get off of the bed. I almost make it off, but Mattheo crawls forward on the bed and loops his arm around my waist pulling me back down. "Screw you" I scowl at him. He chuckles. "Oh baby, you thought you could take dominance the whole time-" I flip him over again. "You underestimate me" I smirk and whisper ''I love you'' in his ear. Then I hop off the bed quickly, grab my shoes, and run out of his dorm laughing. "You suck" he yells after me. "And love you too" he yells again. I smile and run back to my dorm.
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"She's a slut, and a whore, and a b*tch. Why I ever asked her out in the first place, nobody knows. It was a moment of weakness, ''Draco says as I walk by. "Look, the devil herself." "Shut up Malfoy" I say through gritted teeth. "Nobody likes you, you little slut. Nobody. I used to date sophie ya know? I was the person she would rant to. About her stupid friend that followed her around everywhere" my eyes begin to sting. Why am I crying? Why am I letting his words affect me? "And mattheo. We were friends once too ya know. Sat together at lunch all the time. I heard all about this girl, who thought she was his best friend, but he hated her and wished she would just leave him alone-" " stop!" I scream , whipping around. "Just. Stop ''I turn back and walk quickly to my dorm. Just one more minute. You can hold it in until then right? I take a deep breath, and walk faster. "Hey there you are! Sorry I just let myself in, I wasn't sure when you were going to be back and- '' I look up at him, cursing the tears in my eyes. "Hey, hey. What's wrong? What happened?" he asks, cupping my face in his hands. I take a deep breath to explain, but choke on a sob and tears start streaming down my face. "Come here" he says softly, and hugs me to his chest. I hold onto him tightly, and cry into his shirt, staining it, much like all that time ago when mclaggen rejected me. "Shh" Mattheo says into my hair, and kisses the top of my head. "What happened?" he asks once I've calmed down. I groan. "Malfoy was talking about me, and you, and sophie, and i just-" i sigh, "i don't even know why i'm crying, because it was stupid, and i know he's a jerk and he's lying, but-" "but?" he asks. I cover my face with my hands. "I'm on my period" I answer really slowly. "Oh" he says. I groan again. "I'm sorry, you probably did not want to know that, but that's probably why I was crying so hard, and why I'm crying again." I answer as tears begin to stream down my face again. "No, no. I'm glad you told me. I'm glad you trust me. What did Malfoy say?" he asks softly. "Well he said I'm a slut, and a whore, and that you never liked me, and Sophie just sees me as the girl who follows her around, and i know he's a jerk, but, ugh. He just really got to me" I finish, after hiccuping through the whole explanation. "Hey" Mattheo cups my face, and moves so I meet his eyes. "I love you okay. Love you. And like you. Little bit of both." he smiles. "And Draco is a liar, and he's a jerk, and I want to kill him for saying those things and making you cry, but I know that would make you upset, and I don't want to make you upset, so I'll refrain. For now." We both smile, and he moves forward so our foreheads touch. "I love you. So so much" he says. "I love you too," I whisper. "Now, do you want to watch 13 going on thirty?" he asks, wiping the tears off my face with his thumbs. "Mmm, do you want to pick a new romantic comedy? I think I've seen that one too many times" he laughs., "okay. Do you want to change into something more comfy?" I nod, and move towards the bathroom. "Claire?" I look over at him. "I love you" he says. "I love you too" I answer, before going to change into some sweats and a sweatshirt. After changing, we both lay down, and he holds me while we watch the movie. Halfway through, my eyes start to get droopy. Mattheo notices and holds me tighter. "Go to sleep," he whispers in my ear. "I'm not going anywhere" I smile, and then let my sleepiness take over.