Unsolved Pain

Chapter 17

I laid there in bed thinking what I did to Blue, I felt really bad. Kayden was right I should've done it then changed my name to something else and move out the country or at least the state. I don't know anyone out of state either. I never met anyone like Kayden. Nobody like me anyway. It's just so overwhelming when it comes to actions like this. I'm going to pray that Blue doesn't get caught. I hope he will be fine and God could forgive him. I personally didn't mean for nothing of this to go down. Of course I wanted Michael dead but not like this. I feel so relieved though. I have four weeks till my little angel is here so I have to get names together figure out where we going to live how am I going to support my family. Me and Kayden situation. I have too much to do.

I wonder where Kayden is, I'm worried about him. I don't see Blue's car and I haven't gotten in contact with Kayden I've been trying to get a hold of him. I can't, I'm too stress out. I'm running bathwater to get in to relax. I brought a knife into the bathroom with me since I'm here by myself. I feel relax and not so tense. I've decide not to give my baby up for adoption. Im keeping it and raise, he or she deserves to know her mother and Kayden is stepping in being a father to it. My life seems to be turning around. I lay in the tub and all of a sudden I hear a knock on the door I grabbed the knife ready for battle. "It's me Kayden. Can I come in?" "Yeah you can."Sorry I couldn't call you back. I was busy with my uncle." "So what's going to happen?" "Man I don't know sweetie. I know he's going to court." "I didn't mean for any of this to happen." "I know you didn't mean too Trixie but shit happens." I rested my head in his chest, as he held me close. "He's not in your life anymore just relax." I felt relieved that I don't have to hide my body. I don't have to feel scared or nervous or anything beside safe, free and beautiful. I feel better than I have ever felt. Kayden is going to keep me safe and hopefully Blue will forgive me. I want Blue to look at me like his niece I feel Blue should've been my father. I love Blue like he was my own uncle. Even though i don't know him that well, he seems real cool though. Damn Blue i'm sorry.

"Where are we going?" I looked at him and thought. "I don't know babe, what do you mean where are we going?" "We gotta leave sometime this week. I don't think it's safe for us here. We did this to our self. We have to move out of Detroit. We gotta move down south." Slow down babe. I can't go anywhere and I'm 5 days from giving birth. I have to take care of my child first." Everything gotten silent between us. "What do you mean you're child. This is our child, we are in this together." "Okay babe well let's chill because I don't want to stress. I have too for the baby. After 4 days of the baby being here then we can move okay. We might have to drive. But like you said we in this together." We laid down and relaxed. He went down to cook, we ate showered and went to bed.