Unsolved Pain

Chapter 8

My head hurts, i'm also out of my restraints. Thank God no Michael but Kayden isn't here either. So he left me great, I call the nurse for help out the bed. I went to the bathroom to look at myself. I look like shit, my hair is all over the place, my bruises are there, and I see where I cut myself. There is too much going on. I hope Kayden didn't see the slits on my wrist. I got back into the bed with the help of my nurse. My nurse says to me"What happen to you, I'll keep my lips sealed." I looked at her, then she left. She must saw the fear in my eyes. I laid back down in bed and Kayden walks in. "What's going on?" he asked me. I rolled over and looked at him.

"I tell you when I'm ready. OK?" I replied. He nodded his head and handed me a bag. I looked at him confused "It's breakfast"he said . This Kayden guy seems really cool. I have a little crush on him, and he is so attractive. I think he has a secret crush on me too, I wouldn't mind though. We started talking about what were we going to do for the project. "Well I'll present it, if I can take you out your first day out the hospital." He smiled at me but was being so serious to. "Yeah that's fine, i never been on a real date before,or, a date at all. I'm also sorry that I freaked you out by my lash out....." Before I could even finish he leaned in and gave me a kiss.

He was a good kisser and his lips was soft. His breathe was clean and minty. As opposed to Michael who was not a good kisser, lips were to rough and his smelled horrible like an alcoholic. I hope he dies.  He knows I have a history of suicide. The first time I've done it was in the 5th grade and you're probably looking like what does a 5th grader have to worry about. I was being bullied. I was bullied because I was different. I was the shortest. I had a beautiful personality, I was just an all around good, sweet gentle, kind kid. I couldn't understand, why me? Ever since then I wanted to die. I've tried over dosing twice, I've stabbed myself in the hand and then I've tried hanging myself but I'm too short to reach anything to hang on too. Kayden turned the TV and turned it to Rugrats. He was reminiscing about his childhood. I just assumed, because I do that sometimes. I feel there's something else he's keeping something from me. I just don't know what to do, I guess if there's more I need to know then he'll tell me. I go back to watching the TV. I looked at Kayden and he looked at me. Things was a little uncomfortable because of the kiss. That was my first kiss voluntarily. It was good though. We looked back at the TV but i had gotten really sleepy, then I feel asleep.