new girl (tommyinnit x reader)

chapter 22

C.W - throwing up, fighting
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y/n's pov

it's been 5 days since the 'incident'. i haven't left my room since. it's all too much. i haven't been eating. at all. i've officially reached rock bottom.

everyone's been great and patient with me: will's persistently brought me food despite it going to waste, niki and drista came in and talked to me to keep my mind off things, tubbo came in occasionally and read to me, tommy was there to hold me when i needed it, the others made sure i knew they were there for me. i love them all so much; they're the best friends i could've ever wished for.

but when i woke up, tommy was gone. he was always here when i woke up. where was he? i checked the time on my phone which read 7:27pm. i started to panic. i'm sure he's alright, right? just then i had the sudden urge to throw up.

i stumble over to the bathroom and collapse in front of the toilet. my breathing became irregular as i heard a knock at the door.

"y/n?" i recognized the voice as will's, "everything okay?"

i feel myself begin to gag, so i lean over the bowl. he opens the door and sees where i'm positioned. he quickly kneels down beside me and gathers my neglected hair into his hands. i hurl what very little food i had eaten. i struggle to breath, attempting to push up something that wasn't there.

when i gave up trying, i began to sob. without question, he pulls me back gently against his chest. 

"hey, hey, you're okay." i just weep more. he began to gently stroke my head and rock back and fourth slightly in attempt to calm me.

as i finally calmed down, i turned around to embrace him. i could feel his smile against my neck.

i pull away and he asks, "what's wrong, sunshine?"

i respond with the blunt question, "do you know where tommy is?"

his face drops from a slight smile to a straight face. he knew something.

"he left early this morning, i only know because he sent a text. he didn't tell you?"

i shake my head. he left this morning? it was pretty much dark outside, where was he?

"how about," he started, changing the subject, "i run you a bath. i'm sure niki can help if you want?"

i smile and nod my head.

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after i got out the bath, i sat with everyone- it was nice not being in my room. it was now nearly 10pm and no one had heard from him. 

just then, we could hear the faint sound of the front door unlocking, opening, and locking from the corridor. out in the corner of my eye, i saw will give niki a look. the footsteps got closer until they stopped in front of the door way.

"what's going on?" the familiar voice asked when no one spoke.

i turn around to face him. his body was tense and his lips tightened; telling me alot more than he was going to. he knew he fucked up.

i scoff, "where were you?"

"what?" he furrowed his eyebrows.

"you heard me. where were you, tom." i tried my hardest not to have anger get the best of me but it was too late. he could tell i was pissed the second he walked through the door.

what he did next, i would've never expected. he rolls his eyes. "what, so now i can't even leave the house without your permission?! you know what, i've been here all week for you. all fucking week. how about you stop caring so much about yourself and look around. this is bullshit, y/n, and you know it."