Perfection

Chapter 6: Lets Talk & the Truth

Jayden stood at the door and contemplating whether or not to come and talk to me. I fiddled with my thumbs.

JAYDEN'S POV
Allie had a look on her face that literally killed me, but I couldn't just walk in. I love her and the way I gripped her arm was unacceptable. If she'd been hurt by me, I'd be just like my dad. Hurting the people I claim to love most, I was better than that well at least I hope. I turned away from the door, walked over to the curb, and sat. I was unable to make the move.

I heard the chimes of the door, and a petite hand on my shoulder.

"Are you okay?" Allie sat down next to me and pulled me into her arms.

I shook my head.

"I'm ready to talk about my problem and I'm not excepting you to stay with me after you hear it." I was confused, she didn't realize there was nothing she could say or do to degrade the love I had for her. "It all started with my Mama Bonnie. She was the image on every build board with that she had to be perfect. One day she had a serious runway show to attend and she had put on a few extra pounds after giving birth to my mom, so she downed more pills than she usually did. When you have a problem like mine you have to regulate it carefully, but those extra pills were off schedule and regulations. She died of overdose. My mom happened the same way except she cut herself it was all due to the distorted image had."

I had no response for her.

"I have both. I cut myself and strictly regulate my eating." She began crying, she never cried so much before. I removed her arms from around me and made her look up at me.

"Allie, I love you so much, there is nothing you can do to stop that. I am going to help you beat this." I held in my tears, scared of letting her see that I was hurt. She needed me more than anything else.