I Choose to LOVE YOU Lisa G!P

Chapter 10

Jennie's Pov.

"I love you so much Jennie, I will let you go not because I don't love you, but because i don't want to force someone who is not ready to be with me. I hope the next time we meet, you're strong enough to tell me everything." lisa said whispering.

I tried my best to breathe normally so she wouldn't notice that I was awake.

When i heard the door closed, I instantly opened my eyes and that's the time my tears started to flow, I hugged my knees and cried my heart out. 

God, knows how much i love Lisa and how much i want to be with her, but until now, i still don't have the courage to tell her everything.

I'm afraid she might not believe me because I know how she admires her father.

I'm afraid that instead of believing me, she'll be upset with me, thinking that I'm inventing a story to tarnish his father's image.

I don't know how to stop myself from crying because I'm in so much pain, I want to stop her from leaving but I can't.

I was deep in thought when I heard my phone ring.  I wiped my tears I got dressed and calmed myself first before i answered the call.

"hello mommy how are you? why didn't you call last night? tomorrow you go home, right? please open the video so I can see your face, mommy."
My daughter asked, I didn't open my camera because i don't want her to see my eyes swollen from crying .

"hi my princess sorry mommy is in a hurry. tomorrow I'll be home ,but for now I need to leave because mommy still has work to do. goodbye baby mommy loves you so much."
I didn't wait for her answer and i ended the call because i don't want her to notice something in my voice.

I already miss my daughter, except for Lisa, My daughter  is the only one who can calm me down.

I want to hug her and kiss her at these times but she's not here, I hugged my knees I didn’t know how to get rid of the pain I was feeling, a few hours later I was tired of crying .

I calmed myself down I immediately took a shower and then got ready to go out to eat. When I opened my door I was surprised to see Jimin, who was staring at me with many questions in his mind .

Probably because of the swelling of my eyes? I was confused when he looked down at my neck.

I immediately closed the door and looked in the mirror. I close my eyes and facepalm myself  because of  embarrassment, forgot to cover the mark that Lisa left on my neck.

Jimin's Pov.

I woke up late because Jisoo and I finished drinking at two in the morning .

We decided to hangout because we wanted to talk about what had happened.

There were many questions on our minds when Lisa and Jennie, left to talk.

Jennie didn't mention anything to me about her past, except for the reason why she didn't stay with LJ's father.

That's because the family of the guy didn't want Jennie for their son, especially the father .

Except for that, I don't have  any idea about her past anymore, I don't know who LJ's father and I opened  up all that to Jisoo last night.

I know it's not nice that we talk about Jennie's personal life without her, but we try to connect the situations to try to answer the questions in our mind but we still fail.

I know all of Jennie's hardships since she started working, I saw how she persevered herself for her daughter.

Even though envious people  talked about her because she was too young to have a child, and the person who got her pregnant did not hold a responsibility for her? She just ignores them. I hate it every time people use the single mother thing to degrade her.

I can see that she is hurting but she just doesn't pay attention to what other people say. She doesn't show  her weak side but I know she's having a hard time.

I genuinely admire her as the woman she is right now, tried to court her before because i really like her,  who wouldn't? Jennie is the perfect definition of what they call wife material.

I am willing to accompany and help her through what she is going through in life, i'm willing to accept Lj as my own, but she didn't give me a chance.

I respect that, i love her but it doesn't mean that i will force myself to her.

We just stayed as friends, believe me i really care for her in a way i can.

Last night when she saw Lisa, I saw that she was surprised but I also saw the joy in her eyes that I only saw for the first time, and I knew at that time that Lisa was special to her.

I picked up my phone, it's 11 in the morning. I did not receive any messages from Jennie.

I prepared myself to go out and eat, when I came out I passed by Jennie's room. I was about to knock to check if she was inside when the door suddenly opened  and I frowned as I noticed her eyes were swollen.

I was surprised to see that her neck had a kiss mark on it.

So there's really something between her and Lisa. My thoughts.

She noticed me looking at her neck and suddenly she closed the door.  I just left with a lot of questions in my mind.

I know Jennie so well, I know she doesn't want anyone to interfere with her personal life, so if she doesn't tell me about it, I don't force her.

Jennie's Pov.

After what happened to Lisa and me, we never saw each other again and Jimin, chose not to ask about what he saw that day .

I know he has a lot of questions, but he didn't try to ask and that's what I liked about him, he respects my private life, he doesn't force me to speak.

When the plane landed, I suddenly felt the emptiness in my heart because of Lisa, but I was happy because I was finally with my daughter.

I was quiet the whole ride and Jimin being a considerate man, he never bothered me. I came back from my deep thoughts when the company van stopped in front of my house, I immediately got off and said goodbye to Jimin.

I took my luggage and ran to the house, I saw my daughter, she happily stood up and ran towards me, I opened my arm to hug her .

I can't stop myself from crying while I hug my daughter, I don't know but the feeling is so heavy that I know in myself that I can give him the complete family he deserves, but I'm a coward.

I can see the frown of mama Lilian's face, she knows me well.  I know I have nothing to hide from her, she knows that something bad happened.
Mama Lilian is the only one who knows everything that happened in my past, including Lisa.

"mommy why are you crying"
LJ asked, I looked at her as I wiped my tears.

"Mommy was just happy because I finally saw and hugged my most  beautiful daughter again."
I told her and I gave her a kiss on both cheeks.

"Mommy, I'm your only daughter."
she answered and pout, I laughed and pinched her nose.

"Exactly baby, i have something for you." I took the things I bought for her and she is so happy .

"thank you mommy i love you."
she said while hugging me.

After a tiring day LJ fell asleep, I kissed her on the cheek and left the room.

I saw mama sitting on the sofa, she stood up and gave me a tight hug.