I Choose to LOVE YOU Lisa G!P

Chapter 29

Jennie's Pov.

I came home from the hospital because today is the appointed day for my ultrasound.

It hurts to admit but I feel like Lisa is not interested in our baby anymore, I don't know the reason why she suddenly changed.

It's good that Rosie is there to accompany me, because she was the one who will look at the baby's gender for gender reveal that she's going to organize.

Our helper said that Lj was sleeping  when I arrived home,  I went to her room and sat on the bed next to her and carefully caressed her cheeks.

I couldn't stop myself but to shed tears as I looked at her, she was too young to experience this kind of family situation.

It doubled the pain i was feeling every time I saw her cry, everytime her dada ignores her. I don't know what's going on with Lisa, It's been a week since she acted like shit towards us.

I thought at first she was just pranking us, but she's not . It hurts me when I see her ignoring her daughter like she's invisible.

I try to ask her what the problem is, but we end up fighting because she doesn't want to talk about it.

I feel like the happiness that i feel for the first few months we were together, Is the same amount of pain i was feeling right now because of what Lisa is doing to us.

I'm starting to feel regret that I give us another chance, but i'm still hoping that everything will be back to normal as soon as possible.

It would be better for her to hurt me physically because ,yes, she is here with us but we cannot feel her presence anymore.

The most painful thing is that I don't know what we did wrong to her, for her to treat us differently on how she treated us before.

No matter how hard I try to remember if I did something wrong that cause her to change her treatment of us, I really don't remember anything.

I also ask Jisoo if Lisa, is cheating on me.

She says it's impossible, because these past few weeks  they've been together all day because of the big project they're planning and Lisa, is just in the office all the time.

But she wondered why Lisa, returned to her former cold personality, she ignored everyone like she used to do before, she only speaks when she has something important to say, except that she doesn't speak anymore.

Sometimes I question myself if I can still satisfy her sexual needs.

Is it about sex?

Could she have changed jut because I'm not as sexy as before because I'm pregnant?

God! I don't really know what to think.

"Mommy, are you okay? Are you crying? Are you crying because of me?" she said. " Am i a bad baby?" she's stopping herself not to cry.

I didn't know that she already woke up, I wiped away my tears and smiled at her.

"no baby you're not bad, mommy is crying because I'm happy because the doctor said that baby bean is healthy." I lied because I didn't want her to think that i'm crying because of her.

"Mommy, I've finished the piece that I'm going to play for my birthday, I've tried my best so that Dada, won't be mad at me anymore." she said happily to me.

I kissed and hugged her tightly and I secretly wiped away my tears. I wanted to shout out all the pain I was feeling because i feel like i'm drowning with my emotions right now, but i can't, i need to be strong for her.

"My princess, don't think that dada is mad at you, you know how much dada love's you,right ? dada is just going through something so she's acting like that but she loves you very much." I told her and she wrapped her hand around my neck.

" I know mommy, i understand."

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I was lying on the bed when Lisa came into our room, I stood up to help her remove her tie, she let me help her but she's not saying anything.

She looked at me but there was no expression on her face, I kissed her on the lips but I immediately stop  because i feel like she's no plan to respond.

"Have you eaten, do you want me to prepare something for you to eat?" I asked her as I went back to bed.

"I already ate ." she answered shortly and she went into the bathroom.

I wiped the drop of tears that had escaped my eyes and tried to calm myself down.

She came out of the bathroom and put on her pajamas before she lay down  back facing me, I was in so much pain but I was trying my best to understand her.

"Lisa, did you pass in Lj's room? Did you know that she finished her piece because she wants you to be proud of her and she did her best." calmly I told her.

" I'm tired ." she answered me, I wanted to shout at her because of  annoyance I was feeling but I tried to be calm.

I know her, I know that when I pass her in an angry conversation, she will come back to me in anger and that's what I avoid.

"Lisa no matter what you're going through, I'm just here ready to listen. I'll understand if you don't want to talk about it right now, I just want you to know that I'm just here ready to help no matter what happens I will not give up Lisa, that's what I promised myself at the day we got married, I will be with you through thick and thin, and for better and for worst ."I told her because I want her to feel that no matter what she was going through, I was just here for her.

"I know this is just part of the test of our relationship, but I hope you also let me feel that we can handle it together. Lisa, I love you so much, for now i will only ask you one thing. Please don't miss your daughter's birthday because that's her only wish . She only wants to be with you on the important day in her life. We miss you Lisa, hope everything will be ok soon.I love you." i added as I hugged her.

She didn't answer, I turned my back and I cried quietly ,I choked up but i try my best not to make sound. because i don't want her to hear that i'm crying.