Chosen (Lloyd X Reader)

Boiling

Ever since the first mission, I've been filled with frustration and thoughts that haven't dared left my mind. So, I've decided to go full-on training mode to try to forget about these thoughts. To suppress these emotions that stop me from thinking straight. Especially about that flash I had. It's best to jut ignore it for now.

So, now, I'm on the deck of the Bounty, training. The ship is floating perfectly still on the water. There's no breeze and no clouds in the sky. The fish swimmingly peacefully in the sea by the boat. Everything is just in balance.

And, yet, I'm the only thing that's not, unfortunately.  

I start to move gracefully along the floorboards of the deck, trying not to let my mind wander. Because if I do, I'm gonna start spiraling again. With every move, not a single creak can be heard on the floorboards. Quick, graceful, deadly, and repeat. 

As I'm repeating my fighting moves, a memory manages to slip into my process.

The visit from Jay's parents, and the talk of parents lately.

I slowly stop moving, my fans lowering to the side of my body and my mind begins to fill with thoughts.  

Why am I thinking about parents now?... I have to stop or else I'm going to start thinking about the other thoughts I have. I can't have that. Besides, I can't start thinking about my parents now or else I'll start falling behind. They're gone anyway...

I shake my head as I continue on with my training once more. I swing my fans smoothly around the air as I attack at the same time. Then, I throw one of my fans at the mast of the ship, leaving a rather deep cut in the mast. I smile at how deep my fan managed to cut as I get into my stance once more. I close my eyes tightly, letting silence surround me. I sweep my feet around the ground, finding the best angle to throw my fan. 

I slowly stop moving, allowing my ears to take control. All I hear is the ocean softly hitting the side of the ship and the breeze flowing through my hair. If I wasn't training, I would fall asleep right there and then. I quickly throw my last fan, hearing my fan get stuck in the wood of the ship. Immediately after that, I hear a rather loud scream. "Gah!" 

I snap open my eyes, turning my attention to where my fan landed. My fan embedded in the wood of the doorway and right next to that, Jay standing there, cowering in fear. 

 "Please don't kill me!" He screams out in horror. 

I quickly stop everything I'm doing as I run over to him. "Ah! I'm sorry Jay! I didn't see you there!"

Jay drops to the ground and starts cradling himself, trying to calm himself down. "I almost died again... I'm never interrupting your training sessions again..." He sniffles, on the brink of tears.

I bend down to his level, patting his head hoping it would calm him down. He usually does that to me whenever I'm upset so I hope it works for him too. "I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to. I didn't hear you come in."

Damn it! I should've heard him walk by at least! I need to pull myself together! I can't let my thoughts invade my mind anymore! I have to keep a clear mind at all costs!

Kai walks onto the deck, hearing the rather loud cries from Jay. He looks around for a moment before spotting him on the floor as I'm trying to calm him down. The red ninja walks over to us, rolling his eyes. "Guessing another training incident?'

I give Kai an awkward smile, "Yeah, heh."

"You really need to be a more careful kid." Kai shakes his head, sighing. He really doesn't want to start babysitting us whenever I train. "Well dinner is ready, so better come inside before Cole decides to eat it all. After all, it's Zane's turn to cook."