WORLD Z: The Monster Within

Chapter 33: Reminisce

I did the best I could to make my idea of V's scar in her back. It's supposed to be creepy looking but I'm not good with editing so I kinda made it look like cool or beautiful. Not sure if everyone thinks the same though. Anyway, hope this help with your imagination of V's most iconic mark.
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"V, what happened to you?" 

Sh*t, why now?

"Ethan, I-" di ko mapigilan na mautal. I couldn't find the right words to tell him. Sinara ni Ethan ang pinto sa likuran nya at siniguradong ilock ito. Tiningnan nya ko ng seryoso bago pa bumuntong hininga at sumandal sa pinto. Parang bang hinihintay nya ang sasabihin ko. 

Pero ano ba dapat sabihin ko?

"Are you really V? Ikaw pa ba si Alina na kilala ko?" 

My voice choked before I could start to explain when he asked that question.

Am I really still that person he knows? I'm not even sure. 

"Sa tingin mo? Ako pa ba?" I scoffed to myself. 

"That time, you sacrificed yourself para maligtas kami. I regretted everything because I couldn't do anything. Pero kung nangyari to dahil samin. Whatever happened to you or kung ano ka man ngayon. Tanggap pa din kita. Gusto ko lang maliwanagan bago ko matanggap lahat."

I sigh. "I fought with everything I could after I left you to run. Pero mutants are far stronger than average human. It cannot be killed with normal means. I almost died; I thought I died. Then I woke up on top of a meteorite without my memories, I had these changes in me. Someone helped me, explained to me of what has happened for me to become like this and in return I have rescued some survivors and guided them out of the city. Nagkaroon ako ng chance na makalaban ulit yung mutant na nagbabantay sa daan kung san yung exit papunta sa base, kaya pinatay ko ito gamit ang bago kung kakayahan. I fought again and this time I killed it pero di nakaligtas yung iba. I stayed, and Zach too. I regained my memories after I killed the mutant and although I wanted to come to your side I couldn't. So, I'm sorry if I didn't get to see all of you despite the fact that I am alive. I couldn't risk getting all you in danger now that I'm one of them." I tried to summarize everything that happened from the moment na naseparate ako sa kanila. Ethan listened and his brows furrowed the more I talked. 

"Why would you say sorry when all you've ever did is protect us. V. I don't get it, do you not trust us? Alam mo naman na kahit anong mangyari tatanggapin ka pa din namin. Does that not mean anything to you? Cause I've been through a lot of sh*ts when I thought I lost you that day. Not just me. Tito and tita even faith. They--" his voice cracked and as if on cue his tears started to fall from his eyes. 

I've hurt them so much. More than I could have imagined. 

But the thought of hurting them or even killing them with my own hands is much worse for me than having to let them think I'm dead. 

Cause truth be told, I can't even tell if this is living anymore. 

"I'm sorry." the only words I could utter. 

Yumuko ako di dahil gusto ko na maiyak, yumuko ako para matago ang mukha na ngayon ay parang manika na wala man lang kaekspresyon. Nasasaktan ako, pero di ko kaya na ipakita yun.

"They miss you so badly. Do you not want to see them?"

"Di ko sila kayang makita. Mas masasaktan sila kung makita nila kung ano nang nangyari sakin."

"But still, you have to come with us."

"I can't."

"V, THIS IS NON-NEGOTIABLE."