Scandalous Affair: Atlas Mate

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Could emotion change so fast, like how fast coins could be flipped? One moment I was so drowning from the abyss of sadness. But now, I felt like flying to the clouds of happiness. How could such a thing be possible? I guess when it comes to our emotions and feelings, everything was possible. Things become unexplainable. 

"What should we do to your pretty little dress?" Atlas said as his eyes roved from my head to toe. 

He tilted his head and put his hands on his chin. Atlas kept thinking while looking at my champagne-colored babydoll dress. I felt conscious under the eye of someone I liked. I was always confident in the way I looked. I knew I was pretty. Everybody told me that, and looking at my parents, there was no doubt I am pretty. I may have foreign blood in me, but my beauty was a Filipina one. 

"What's with my dress? Was it too short?" 

Didn't boys like short dresses and skirts? I meant, most teen boys tried checking out girls with short school uniforms in our university. But I heard boys didn't like it when their girlfriends wear something revealing. Where is the logic in that? They like seeing it to others, but not to their partner? Where's their damn brain?

"Well, yes. We're going to ride Love. It looks good on you, but not while riding on my motor."

He got the point if I don't want to parade my flying dress and reveal my underwear to everyone. I need to change.

"Why? Where are we going?" 

"You'll see." 

Nagulat naman ako nang bigla siyang lumapit sa akin, habang hinuhubad ang leather jacket niya. Napaatras ako nang kaunti at napalinga-linga. Ano bang ginagawa niya? Bakit siya naghuhubad ng jacket niya? Saka wait! Talaga bang dito? Public place 'to, a? Sure ba siya? Hindi ba nakahihiya at baka may makakita sa amin? Heat crawl to my neck to my cheeks. This sinful and shameful train of thought came rushing on my brain. 

"W-What are you doing?" kinakabahang tanong ko.

Napatigil siya saglit at kunot noong tumingin sa akin. "Huh?"

"B-Bakit ka naghuhubad ng j-jacket mo?" 

He raised his left brow and smirked at me. "This is the reason why I don't want you reading that fucking erotic book. Look at how your brain thinks now. So impure, Little Girl." Pinitik niya ang noo ko sabay kabig sa akin papalapit.

Dahil sa gulat mula sa pagkabig niya sa akin ay hindi ako nakagalaw. Yumuko si Atlas nang kaunti at itinali paharap ang jacket sa aking baywang. Mas lalo naman akong namula dahilsa kahihiyan. Stupid, Olivia! Kung ano-anong pinag-iisip mo. When he stood straightly, I avoided his mocking eyes. I can't look at him in the eye after all the things I have thought. Why did I even thought about such things?

"T-Thanks," I said without looking at him.

I could see him shaking his head while a teasing smile was plastered on his lips. "Come on, stop with your ridiculously dirty thoughts, Little Girl." 

Napairap na lang ako habnag sumasakay sa motor niyang pinangalanang Love. Guilty ako, e. Guilty sa paratang nag-iisip ng maruruming bagay. I should probably stop reading erotic stories, but they are enjoyable. They sometimes get stress and boredom off my shoulders. And now, I can understand Prim when she said I could use it as a future reference. I learned a lot of things especially, how to do sex properly and how to pleasure myself. However, I still get shy about it. Hindi namna kasi sguro ganoon kadaling masanay sa ganoong bagay.

Compare to our rides before; Atlas was now driving more at ease and moderately fast. I was still hugging him tight from behind as the air flew my hair and kissed my skin warmly. I closed my eyes and felt the air more. After breaking down in front of that almost empty music hall, my eyes felt tired so was my heart and soul. I felt so broken, but he revived me. His presence made my broken heart whole again. He picked up the falling pieces of my soul with his clap. I never thought one person could make you feel complete.