'19' Last Days Of Being a Teenager |Memoir

Itami

But you keep spinning round me just the same—Heavy (ft kiiara)—LINKIN PARK

Obliviously I carry a gentleman's aura, which is false. After getting to know me, you'll see I am no gentleman. You'll realise I am no innocent soul.

My gentle look, decent talk and charisma has fooled you just as it has fooled many. So when You say you like me trust me, you don't!

What you like is an idea of me you have conceived in your head. A picture of me which you expect me to live up to. In which I can't. It's exhausting.

So that's why I choose not to be vulnerable and dismiss your feelings. Because the foundation of your attraction is a lie.

That's why I choose to remain mysterious and emotionally manipulative, Because I believe you'll play me, So I play you first.
I believe you'll see me for my naughty and playful side and be irritated So I act guarded and tough. And when that idea of yours doesn't match up to reality, you'll leave me—So I leave first.

And it pains me more that I have to do this. It does.