With or Without Him~ Lucius M. X OC

Just Her

Hot tears ran down my face as I stood frozen, rereading the note a thousand times.

I can't believe she left.

She has 9 kids. She just left all of her responsibilities.

We're all struggling with dad's death, but nobody else left. Just her.

Still, I hadn't moved. Thinking about the events when Everette ran into the room. I showed him the note and he looked about as stable as I did.

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As much as I wanted to sit and cry In my bed all day, I knew I couldn't. I was now the eldest in the family and was responsible for my siblings. I wasn't quite sure what I was supposed to do, but I knew one thing.

I can't go to Hogwarts this year.

Seventh Year. My seventh year. The one year I was supposed to take every bit of misfortune dealt to me, into positivity.

I don't know how to do that.
Not anymore.

Everette had gone into his room to process, and the rest of the family was just downstairs looking at the world all so innocently.

I finally pulled myself to the desk to write to Dumbledore. My hand was shaking and the handwriting looked as someone else's. I began to write.

Later, I had finished the letter. It told him about my situation, how I must stay to watch over my young siblings, but the older ones who can go to Hogwarts will. I gave it to the family owl and she took off.

I stayed in my room for a while longer, until I realized it was time for me to make dinner. I went downstairs to see Amy looking at a letter. She looked devastated. I had no idea what was wrong.
Did she find moms note? Is this something else?

"You're not going to Hogwarts?"

Fuck

I didn't expect her to find out already

I examined the letter in her hand to notice it was Dumbledore's response.

I finally remember to answer. "No. I'm not."

"Well why not?"
She seemed so sad. Her voice was soft and she looked tired.
I guess now I have to tell them.

"Um well somethings happened... I'd like to tell the family all at once." I said slowly

"What? Why can't mom tell us?"

I ignored her question. "Come on."

I eventually got everyone sat in the living room. Although Everette knows that mom is gone, he doesn't know my plans for school.

"Okay. Thank you guys for coming to listen." I started. "Somethings happened and it's not a good thing."
I looked around at my siblings faces, they looked scared but impatient.

"Mom left."

I quickly turned my head.

I didn't say that. Everette did.

Everyone was staring at him, confused.

"Well when is she coming back?"

They didn't understand.

"She's not coming back. She's gone. She left us." I could hear the pain in Ev's voice as he said this. How upset he was.

"Everette" I tried to stop him.

"No!" He now is yelling "they deserve to know the whole truth. Mom left and she's not coming back because she didn't want to deal with us anymore."

Now everyone's head directed itself to me. They all wanted me to say he was wrong. To say he's lying and that mom will be home soon. But I couldn't.

"It's true." Was all I said.

Amy spoke up. "Well what about you not going to school?"

No body knew about this yet.

"Well"

They are not going to take this well.

"With mom... gone...
Nobody will be here to take care of the youngests during the school year." I paused to look at there faces. They all were waiting for me to finish.
"I have to take care of them now. So I won't be going to Hogwarts this year."

Before they could protest, I continued.
"I owled Professor Dumbledore earlier and explained the whole situation. He understands and said he's there if we need him."

I was done. I hesitantly looked up. No one said anything. I wasn't sure what each one was thinking about. Mom leaving, me staying, what's gonna be for dinner. It could be anything

"But." I took the silence as they were scared.

"This is not going to stop all of you, and us at home, to have a great time. Term is in three days! Don't forget to pack."
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