The Lili Hummel Diaries

August 29th, 2021

Blaine was taking the whole cheating thing really hard, I knew I had to distract him somehow. I walked to his house (rose I know it'd take 8 hours to walk to Westerville but I don't care) and Pam let me in,

"He's up in his room. Let him know that I'm worried about him." I nodded, and went into Blaine's room,

"Let's go, time to be alive!" I turned on the light at his desk, Blaine groaned,

"Lili go away." I shook my head,

"Nope, you're mom is worried about you. I'm not leaving until you eat something and tell me what's going on inside of that gelled brain of yours." Blaine sighed,

"Ugh, fine." He chucked his phone at me, "Catch." I sighed, and Blaine realized his mistake, "Sorry." I handed Blaine his guitar,

"I've got a song I'm working on, I need a melody and some lyrics." Blaine nodded,

"Cool, why me?" I shrugged,

"I know we both were cheated on, and although you won't say it, I know you're struggling mentally right now." Blaine sighed,

"Fine." I handed him a copy of my lyrics, "Mask? Really, you couldn't have come of a better name?" I shook my head,

"Read the lyrics." Blaine nodded and began strumming on his guitar, I started singing the lyrics.

"I wear a mask with a smile for hours at a time
Stare at the ceiling while I hold back what's on my mind
And when they ask me how I'm doing
I say, "I'm just fine"
And when they ask me how I'm doing
I say, "I'm just fine"
But the fact is
I can never get off of my mattress"  Blaine started to play his guitar,
"And all that they can ask is
"Why are you so sad, kid?" (Why are you so sad, kid?)

That's what the mask is

That's what the point of the mask is

So you can see I'm tryin'

You won't see me cryin'
I'll just keep on smilin', I'm good (yeah, I'm good)"  Blaine started to pick up my vibe,
"And it just keeps on pilin'
It's so terrifying
But I keep on smilin', I'm good (yeah, I'm good)
I've been carin' too much for so long
Been comparin' myself for so long
Been wearin' a smile for so long, it's real
So long, it's real, so long, it's real" That was where my lyrics had stopped, but Blaine came in with his own lyrics,

"Always bein' judged by a bunch of strange faces

Scared to go outside, haven't seen the light in ages
But I've been places
So I'm okay-ish, so I'm okay-ish
Yeah, I'm okay, bitch
But the fact is
I need help, I'm failin' all my classes
They think that I need glasses
I just really wish that I could pass this (wish that I could pass this)"  Blaine and I began to harmonize with the chorus,

"That's what the mask is

That's what the point of the mask is

So you can see I'm tryin'

You won't see me cryin'
I'll just keep on smilin', I'm good (yeah, I'm good)
And it just keeps on pilin'
It's so terrifying
But I keep on smilin', I'm good (yeah, I'm good)
I've been carin' too much for so long
Been comparin' myself for so long
Been wearin' a smile for so long, it's real
So long, it's real, so long, it's real

So long, it's real

So long, it's real"

Blaine and I just kinda stared at each other, soaking in what just happened.

"Thank you," Blaine spoke first, I nodded,

"No, thank you. That's the first time I've actually liked one of my songs since the breakup."