February 25th, 2022

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-time jump a little bit-

I was sitting alone in my room, fingers playing another song I started years ago,


"Four years old

With my back to the door

All I could hear was the family war

Your selfish hands

Always expecting more

Am I your child?

Or just a charity award?"  I didn't notice Kurt walk into our room,

"You have a hollowed-out heart

But it's heavy in your chest

Yeah, I tried so hard to fight it

But it's hopeless, hopeless (hopeless)

You're hopeless

Oh, mother

Please, mother

I'd love to leave you alone

But I can't let you go

Oh, mother

Please, mother

Put the bottle down

For the love of a daughter"  That was where I stopped writing three years ago, everything else I sang today was completely new,

"It's been five years

Since we've spoken last

And you can't take back

What we never had

Oh, I can be manipulated

Only so many times

Before even 'I love you'

Starts to sound like a lie

You have a hollowed-out heart

But it's heavy in your chest

I tried so hard to fight it

But it's hopeless, hopeless (hopeless)

You're hopeless

Oh, mother

Please, mother

I'd love to leave you alone

But I can't let you go

Oh, mother

Please, mother

Put the bottle down

For the love of a daughter"  

Kurt sat on my bed near me,

"Don't you remember, I'm your baby girl?

How could you push me out of your world?

Lied to your flesh and your blood

Put your hands on the ones

That you swore you loved

Don't you remember, I'm your baby girl?

How could you throw me right out of your world?

So young when the pain had begun

Now forever afraid of being loved"  That was when I registered that he was there, that was when the tears started flowing,

"Oh, mother

Please, mother

I'd love to leave you alone

But I can't let you go

Oh, mother

Please, mother

Oh, mother

Please, mother

Put the bottle down

For the love of a daughter

For the love of a daughter"


Kurt noticed I had stopped playing and moved the piano away from me. I collapsed into his arms, hyperventilating with tears streaming down my face. Kurt wrapped his arms around me. He whispered calming shit in my ear.


Hey y'all I'm back. probs gonna disappear again now.

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