The Lili Hummel Diaries

September 17th, 2021

Finn had excused me from rehearsal, so I left and went up to the roof. I laid on the roof crying knowing that I could've lost the love of my life. I was dating Rachel, but I had kissed Quinn, I was conflicted on who to chose. The thought of choosing made me cry even harder. I was on the roof for a few hours, well before Quinn appeared,

"Hey, you alright?" She sat down next to me, "I could sense that you were anxious in there." I nodded and sat up, leaning next to her.

"Yeah. Now I'm just confused." Quinn wrapped her arm around me,

"Why?" I moved her arm ever so slightly,

"Well I'm dating Rachel but I kissed you and I don't know what to do." Quinn kissed the top of my head,

"Well, do you love her?" I nodded,

"I guess." I could hear a smile form in her voice,

"Do you still love me?" I shrugged,

"I think so, I don't know. I'm still mad at you for the whole cheating thing, but that kiss was just fireworks." I made explosions with my hands, "It felt like the first time we kissed." Quinn let a little laugh escape from within her,

"I remember that night, I'm still jealous of the fact that your dress had pockets." I laughed,

"That's the plus of having Kurt as your brother, you can have pockets in pretty much everything." Quinn laughed,

"That's true." I smiled, feeling the energy that used to be there when we were still in the closet.

-time jump to the next day-

I had decided that I didn't love Rachel, but I love Quinn. I love her so damn much. Now I just needed to break up with Rachel.

A/N: IDK how to do this (write a breakup) so we're going to skip it.

-time jump to later that week-

Quinn and I were sitting in the auditorium, having a picnic as one does. I was so grateful for her to be back in my life. We had decided that we weren't going to be public since it was more fun that way. The way I could catch her staring at me and we'd brush it off, saying something like she was looking at Sam or something stupid like that. It felt like it did last year, and I could feel myself getting better.

"Okay, what is going on with you and Quinn." Tina had cornered me in the halls, "Because we feel the tension between you two." I sighed,

"I don't want to talk about it."

A/N: This next part is gonna be written like a script since I can't figure out how to make it sound better

-Split Screen between the loft and the choir room, Quinn is being "interrogated" by Kurt and Santana, Lili is being "interrogated" by Tina and Brittany-

Lili: "If there's a prize for rotten judgment,

I guess I've already won that
No girl is worth the aggravation
We're ancient history, been there, done that"

Tina and Brittany: "Who d'you think you're kidding

She's the earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden,
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, you can't conceal it
We know how you're feeling
Who your thinking of"