My Neighbor (Austin Mahone FanFiction)

"Soon?" Ch.21

"God get out of my head" I say to myself as I lay in bed, sleep deprived. The clock reads 3:17am on a Saturday morning. Ever since my fight with.....him...... My entire mood has changed, I haven't slept very much, and if feel like I hate everyone. I never thought he would be the one to break me. To break my heart. But I guess that's how it always works out huh? The one you thought was different ends up being the one who is exactly the same. But he has left me alone. Like I wanted him to. Or I thought I did. Knowing he is next door to me probably sound asleep, while I'm laying here soaking in my tears. I decided that if I can't sleep I might as well eat so I went up to the kitchen to get some food. As I ponder through the cabinets I notice that Austin's light is on in his room. I can see him sitting at his desk against his window. He's shirtless and I can see him running his fingers through his soft brown locks. Tired and worn out is how you could describe how he looks. I've never seen him like that. Part of me wants to say he's just studying or something and lost track of time but I know austin....he doesn't study. I know I shouldn't but I feel guilty knowing that I caused him pain. But I just need to focus on how he treated me.

12:00pm
After I had ate some chips this morning I was finally able to fall asleep. Just now waking up I feel like death. I get up out of bed and decided I want to go on a run just to clear my head. I through my hair in a bun and put on some shorts and go outside. I see Austin's car gone so I feel a little better about not wanting to bump into him. I run down to one end of the street and then I run to the other. Back and forth. I guess when I run I don't realize how fast the time goes because I look at the clock on my phone and it reads 1:53pm. I ran for almost 2hrs...that should be in a record book for lazy people because I never ever run. But today I just needed something to get my mind off of things. As I run back home I notice a car coming towards me. It's Austin's mom heading out. I wasn't going to say anything but she slows down and rolls down her window.

"Hi sweetie how are you?"

"Hi ms. Mahone..I'm doin ok how are you?"

"Good good. I haven't seen you and austin hanging out lately is everything ok?" She says a little worried.

"Yeah. Just haven't had time I guess."

"Oh...ok well I gotta get to work. Enjoy the rest of your run....bye!!" And with that she drives off.

So austin hasn't said anything....and if he didn't want her to know I wasn't going to tell her. I'm not that mean. I know there where things austin has kept from her only because she was always a little over bearing. He was never the one to be social from what I used to see anyway. But not like it matters now. As I walk in the door I just now notice no one is home. I walk down to my bathroom and get ready for a shower. I turn my radio on and blast some chris brown. Yes.....I'm a major breezy fan! Getting into the shower I notice how many decisions I've made in here. It's crazy really. Well face it we all make decisions in there. After a half hour or so I was getting ready to get out when I heard my dog barking. He usually never does that unless someone knocks. But hey if it's important they will wait. I get dressed and put my hair in a towel to dry and step out of the warm bathroom. I walk up to the door and look out the peep hole. No one was there. I open the door and see A rose with a note attached.

"I can't tell you how sorry I am. Hopefully one day you can forgive me. I would love to see you smile again. Soon?
-Love Austin<3"

I look over to his house and notice him looking at me through his window. All he's doing is staring at me. I feel so guilty even though I shouldn't. He thinks he's no good for me but in all honesty, he's everything I want in a guy. He's everything I've ever wanted. Was it the same feeling for him? I hope to find out soon. I mouthed a thank you to him and smile with a wave and went back inside. To once again think about him. But before I could fully close the door someone stops it.

"Please talk to me"

"Austin please I'm not ready" I say not looking him in the eye.

"Hannah please it's killing me not talking to you and I know it's the same for you."

"Yeah but I'm pissed at you because your an asshole" I say coldly.

"Yes I realize that i am and I realize how much I've screws everything up and that you probably hate me but I just need you to talk to me"

"I don't want to right now. Maybe in a few days but I've been so caught up in my thoughts about this whole thing I'm just not really sure I want to right now."

"Fine but will you answer me one thing?....." he says.

"What's that?" I say turning to him.

"Do you love me?".......

And that is one thing I couldn't answer. Because honestly.....I didn't know.
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