My Neighbor (Austin Mahone FanFiction)

"Thoughts" Ch.12

(AUSTINS POINT OF VIEW)

I hide me feelings from her. I make it seem like everything is fine. But it's not. She's such a good person and.......I'm not. Being stuck in this damn hospital has left me with to much time to think. I don't deserve to have her in my life. She's to kind. I'm just going to hurt her and ruin her life. I feel myself getting to close to her. And I don't want that. I've been sitting here in my room looking out the window. I haven't had any sleep in 2 days and I feel my eyes burn. All my emotions are gone. As I glance down to the side walk, I see hannah walking up to the front doors to the hospital. I have to do something. I hear a knock at the door but I don't answer. After a few minutes I hear it open then close.

"Austin...are you ok" she says quietly

"No" was all I said.

"Well I'm here if...."

"No I don't want to talk to you" I said interrupting her.

"Austin what is wrong with you?"

"I JUST DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU OK? JUST LEAVE AND BETTER YET DONT COME BACK. GOD JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE." I say loudly now facing her.

As soon as I said that the look on her face killed me. She looked so hurt. She just looked at me for a while then shut her eyes as tears fell out.

" I thought you were different. But all you are is a ass." She said quietly then walked out and slammed the door.

(HANNAHS POINT OF VIEW)

Wtf just happened......it had only been a couple days since I saw him last and he just had a mental break down on me. I didn't even do anything.....fine if he wants me to leave him alone I will. As I walk home it starts to snow. I'm surprised I noticed because of all my tears. I didn't really want to go home so I just walked to the park. It's only about 10 minutes from my house so it's not to far. It's about 6o'clock when I get there so there isn't many people here. I sit on the bench near the basketball court and I continue to cry. I don't know why I'm letting him get to me like this. But I guess it's I just like him so much and I thought he liked me. I just wanted to be a friend to him and help him because I knew some stuff he went through but he just pushed me away. I was just sitting here by myself when I feel someone sit next to me. I look over and it was a older woman I didn't recognize.

"Hello sweetie. Are you ok? I noticed you were all by yourself and you were crying" she said sweetly.

" ya I'm ok. Just a little upset." I say wiping my tears away

"Well do you mind if I ask why?"

"It's nothing really. Just a boy." I say

"Oooh I see. Did you guys break up?" She asks

"Umm it's not like that. We weren't dating just friends but we, well he kinda had a fight." After I said that she gave me a look and I explained everything from me seeing him in the mall that day to what happen about an hour ago.

"My goodness. Well sweetie, just give him some space. Maybe he's having mixed emotions right now. Or maybe he just doesn't want to hurt you." She says

"Why would he think he's going to hurt me? He hasn't done anything.."

"Maybe it's something that happened in the past. You never know."

"He hurt me though, and I'm not ready to forgive him anytime soon." I say feeling more mad than upset.

"Well maybe by the time your ready to talk to him he will be ready to talk to you" she says standing up.

"I hope. And thanks for the talk. It helped a lot."

"No problem sweet heart." She says hugging me.

Then all of a sudden I feel someone shaking me and I shot up fast realizing I was asleep on the bench.

"Hey are you ok?" Someone asks. I look up to see it was a kid from my school. He was pretty cute may I add.

"Umm ya sorry I've had a long day and I fell asleep"

"Oh ok well I'm getting ready to leave do u need a ride home?" He asks

"No That's ok I don't live far. Thank you though"

He just smiles and says "no problem. See you around cutie" and walks away. Wow ok now everyone is complimenting me. Not that I mind though. I get up and walk home because it's really late and I'm freezing my ass off because it's like 20 degrees outside. As soon as I get home I get a long hot shower and lay down to go to sleep. But of course with my luck....that's not happening.

(AUSTINS POINT OF VIEW)

I hate myself right now. Why did I do that. She was the only person who understood me. And I let her go. God I'm so dumb. All she wanted to do was be my friend and help me be happy and I hurt her. She's never going to forgive me. And to be honest....I wouldn't forgive me either.
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HELLO PEOPLE OF EARTH!!!! I haven't updated in soooo long! But lots has happened! I MET JAKE MILLER AND BECKYG🙈😭😍😍😍 it's something I will never forget!!! But any way I made the update long because I felt bad for not updating in a while. I will try to update more but idk if it can be every day. But I loved this chapter because I wanted to make things more interesting! Hope y'all enjoyed😊 love youuuuuuu😘😘✌️