My Neighbor (Austin Mahone FanFiction)

"Emotions" ch.7

-AUSTIN'S POINT OF VIEW-

(Btw this chapter explains stuff and it's a little violent. It's not that bad though)

Tick....tock

Tick....tock

Tick....tock

The clock ticks back and forth as I lay here....lost in thought. Not knowing how to cope, can screw up your life. It has mine. I feel lost, broken, abandoned. Its so much more than just dealing with somebody's death. It's not feeling worthy anymore. It's feeling like every thing that you being here just isn't worth it. I have more problems than hannah knows about. She just knows what my mom told her and little things I have told her. Like how I hate the way my hair looks and stuff like that just to make her laugh. I have anxiety. Much worse than a lot of people. I never had anxiety till I saw my mom get beat on by,what was, my stepdad. Time and time again. I would try to stop it... I would try to get him to leave her alone. But it never worked. I also had a sister. She was my half sister. All he ever did was abuse her. I feel like it was my falt he killed her. I was her big brother. I was supposed to protect her... Make sure she was safe. But I didn't know he was doing that...not until I see her laying on the floor unconscious. She was taken to the hospital and died a day later in the ICU. I will never forgive myself. Everybody thinks I'm so happy. That I live in some amazing world. Well there wrong. The only world I live in in the world of mistakes and regret.

I constantly lay here at night. Staring at the blank sealing. I'm so sick of it. The clock reads 3:27am and I'm wide awake. I can't do it anymore. I get up out of bed and put on my hoodie, not my favorite one because hannah still has it. I put my shoes on, grab my keys and leave. It's the Beginning of January and it's freezing. But my body is numb anyway. I drive to the only place I know I can think. The board walk. I get there and of course, nobody is in sight. Always alone. All I do is sit there. Looking out at the ice covered water. Tears of sadness, anger, start to flow and I had no control. I need someone. I need hannah. I need her to hug me and tell me it's gonna be ok even though she knows it might not be. She's the only one with the power to calm me down. I would call her but it's 4am and we have school tomorrow. Well she does. I'm not going. She's the closest thing I have to a friend right now. And she wants to be my friend. I don't know why though. I will just hurt her like I do everyone else. I sit there till 5am and decide it's time to go home because I know Hannah's just getting up and I need to see her before she leaves. I'm just gonna tell her to ride the bus today.

I get to my car and unlock it. I get in and I notice something on the passenger side seat. It's was Hannah's Chapstick. I smile,through the tears that are still coming down my face, because she always leaves it in here and buys a new one before I can give it back. I start up the car and it begins to snow. Really hard. I let the car warm up before I leave and it's so hard to see. I smack the steering wheel in frustration. I fell my emotions starting to get the best of me.

"Your halfway home austin." I say to myself

But right after I say that I loose total control of everything. My car, my emotions, maybe even my life. I never made it back to my house that morning to see the most important person I came back to see. The last thing I remember is seeing the flashes of red and blue lights and the sound of sirens.

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😳😳😳😳😳 OMG this was such an emotional chapter for me. Idk why... But it was the first Austin's point of view!!! You got see more of a personal side of him! And this is a major turning point in there friendship. I know it's kinda fast to have this kind of drama already buuut it's for a reason! I hope you guys are liking it!! And thanks for the 100+ reads😘😘 love you guys!!