"A peaceful silence" ch.14

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You know, it pointless to sit and say that you don't care about someone. It's pointless to try to make yourself believe that you don't need that person. When in reality....you really do need that person. That's what the past few hours have made me realize. I'm sitting here...in Austin's room, well I have been ever since I brought him back over here since what happened earlier. I was gonna wait till he fell asleep to leave but for some reason....I didn't want to leave. I look at the clock and it reads 1am...dang I've been here a while. I just don't understand why I'm here. I'm supposed to be mad at him but I just.....I can't stay mad. I just realized that he needed me a lot more than I thought. We got here about 9 o'clock and he didn't talk much when I brought him up here. He kept saying "you can go home if you want. I know your mad at me." And the thing he kept repeating over and over...... "I'm sorry". I'm starting to think he actually means it. Austin has this little balcony right outside of his room so I decide to go out for some fresh air. See all the lights in my house are off so I know my dad's asleep. I told him what happened so he knows I'm here. Once again it's snowing but it's nothing new. There's a slight breeze but it's not to bad. I close my eyes and think about the first time I saw austin. It was 5th grade when he moved in next to me. From the first day I saw him I knew I had a crush on him. There was just something about him that I liked. And still like. But I never thought anything like this was going to happen. Me....being here....in his room watching over him to make sure he doesn't do anything stupid again. I just didn't feel right leaving him. Because I know he needs me right now. But I'm supposed to be mad at him....oh how I love my emotions😑 the breeze starts to pick up and get colder when all of a sudden a blanket raps around my body. I turn around to see a better looking austin.

"What are you doing out here?" He asks with a sleepy voice.

"Just wanted to get some air"

"Are umm...are you ok?"

I turn around to face him and say "I should be asking you that"

"I'm gonna be ok I guess" he says looking away from me.

"Austin don't lie to me. Why are you acting like this? I hate seeing you hurt"

He waits a little while before saying "so many things have happened in my life hannah. I guess this is my way of coping. But the thought of losing something really important to me...I just couldn't handle it." He says while running his hand though his hair.

"Austin what did you loose?" I ask

"You" was all he said before walking inside. I follow him in as he sits on the floor. I sit in from of him and look at him till he looks at me.

"Austin. Did you really loose me?"

"Ya. I didn't see you for a month because I couldn't handle my damn emotions. I was mean to you. And that was the last thing I ever wanted to happen. I never wanted to hurt you." He says as tears roll down his cheek. I scoot closer to him and grab his hands.

"If you lost me...would I be hear comforting you, making sure your ok? Making sure you don't do anything like what happened earlier? I've been sitting here for 4 hours just thinking about you. Wondering "why are you here your mad at him". When in reality.... I probably couldn't stay mad at you even if I tried." I say looking into his eyes as I start to cry. Austin reaches up and wipes the tears away from my cheek and smiles at me.

"What?" I say to him

"I feel so much better knowing your not mad at me"

"Well I'm not to happy with you but I forgive you."

"Good enough" he says engulfing me in a hug. A real hug. Not like the hug I have him earlier. This was a classic...amazing austin hug. And it was defiantly needed. I stand up with him and say I need to use the restroom. I do my business and come back to find austin laying down.

I walk over to his bed and say " hey I'm think I'm gonna head home. I'm exhausted and I know you are to. I'll see you later ok?" He nods and I start to leave when he grabs my hand.

"Can you ummm.....stay with me... tonight? I sleep better knowing your here" I smile because I know he wants me here with him.

"Umm ya. Just let me run home and get some clothes"

"No need for that" he says standing up going to his closet. He comes out with sweats and a t-shirt.

"You want me to wear your clothes?"

"Ya....I mean if you want." He says shyly

"Sure. Be right back" I say grabbing the clothes and heading to the bathroom. Surprisingly they fit really well. I head back out and see him shirtless with shorts on. Holy god I'm defiantly not mad anymore. I walk over to his bed and he looks at me.

"Damn you look better I'm my clothes than I do"

"Umm thanks" I say smiling and blushing at the same time.

"Aww. Sorry to make you blush" had says and smiles. I haven't seen that smile for so long. It's nice to see.

"Soo umm where do you want me to sleep?" I ask avoiding his statement. He scoots over and pats the spot next to him. I smile and lay down next to him. He pulls the blanket over us both and lays closer to me. He slips his arm around my waist and pulls me to him.

"Is this ok?" He asks against my neck as he gets comfortable.

"Ya. It's ok" I say putting my hand on his that's around my waist.

"Goodnight beautiful"

"Really?" I ask kinda sarcastically.

"Ya. I told you I would complement you every day. And I've missed quite a few."

"Your something else you know that?"

"Yaaaaa.....I know" he says chuckling. After a few minutes I hear his soft snores and I was left in silence. But it was a peaceful silence.

That night I feel asleep in the arms of the guy I have mixed emotions about. But I know.....I know that I may love him.
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