As I'm sitting here waiting. Wondering. I can't help but wonder what he's saying. I look out my door as I watch Dr.Mark talking to my mom. The test results are back. I can't help but wonder if I'm going to be okay.
He walks over to me. By the look in his eyes I can tell what he's fixing to say. He says, "Isabelle you have cystic fibrosis." Cystic fibrosis (CF) is an inherited life-threatening disorder that damages the lungs and digestive system. Hearing the words "You have CF," makes me want to lay on my bed and just cry my eyes out for the rest of the night, but I know I need to be positive about this.
As I'm getting settled into my new room I decide to go for a walk. Get some fresh air. As I'm walking around I see a group of people standing on the roof all separated. As I know people with CF can't get closer than 6 feet. I walk over, keeping my distance, they all seem to be extremely nice people.
I join their group, CF You Are Not Alone. They meet together every other night to discuss their treatments, their friends, their school, just anything they want to. They have each other, someone who understands. We can't really hang out with just anyone so it's nice to have somebody to talk to.
When I get back to my room I start cleaning up and organizing my meds. I get a call from Meagan, my new friend from the group. She's telling me all about how cool she thought it was that I just found out I have CF and yet I seem so happy.
Being positive helps me cope with the fact that I get to spend the rest of my life in a hospital until I get a new pair of lungs. Most people have to wait for years, some months, and some just don't get them in time. I think about the fact that I could die before I even turn 20 and I'm lucky if I turn 30.
The thought of dying scares me. I'm a 16 year old girl thinking about dying. I'm just now old enough to drive, and I'm thinking about dying. What is happening to me? I was fine just a year ago....what in the world is going on in my head right now. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need a day to just relax and focus on the positive. I need a trip to the mall....
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The Road Ahead
Teen FictionIsabelle is recently diagnosed with cystic fibrosis (CF) and she's trying to make friends in her hospital wing. She starts getting bullied and doesn't handle it well. Who knew the bully had more going on than could be seen. Is Isabelle blinded by he...
