Falling- An Attack On Titan Story

bad spot

I sleep in the basement, clean for the Black haired part dude who it turns out is named Levi, and do experiments with this lady named Hange with the glasses. She's very nice. I'm eating breakfast which consists of soggy wheat grains in a bowl with a glass of milk. I mean Eren and I are the key to taking back wall maria but that doesn't make us VIPs. At least not in the scout's eyes.  When Hange comes in. 

"I have some good news boys!" SHe says, very enthusiastically,"We might be onto something! So you explained everything right? The getting eaten, the blanking out, and then the protecting your friends! What exactly was going through your mind?" 

"I told you already, we were thinking that we were gonna die!" Eren stammers. 

"Hey! You and I... We were. Yelling that we would slaughter every titan!" 

"And then you tried to. In titan form. AHA!" She says, doing a happy dance,"I knew it. You wanted to slay titans, so you transformed and did! Then you wanted to save your friends, so you did! I knew it!" 

"So what does this mean?" I ask. 

"It means if you have a task in mind you'll transform! So you just have to figure out and picture what you want to do and then transform!" 

"How would we transform?" Eren questions. 

"I don't know yet. You were in pain the first time! On the verge of dying to be exact!" 

Pain! Pain, pain pain. PAIN! I rush out the door. Running to get out of the area of destruction. 

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!" Levi yells. 

"It's experiment time right?" I say. I picture my task. Be in consciousness when transforming so I can move that big boulder over there. I bite my left hand as hard as I can making it bleed. Then it happens. A big yellow flash of light all around me. Then I see gray flesh. Next thing I know I'm in control of a titan. I feel a little pinch in my back and Levi's odm gear straps onto my shoulder. 

"Good job Noah. I always knew you were the smart one!" 

I can hear the faint voice of Eren,"HEY!" 

"Ok enough!" He says. Cutting the titan limbs off. I feel it fall to the ground. He starts cutting at the back. 

"LEVI! You could kill him! Don't just randomly cut through the titan!" 

"Sorry.." He mutters. 

"Noah do you know of a way to break out of it?" 

"No... I don't know why I stopped last time. It was weird. I can't remember anything." 

"Can you try to locate where you are on the titan." 

Then my vision snaps out of the titan. My eyes go from seeing through the titan to seeing in the cockpit of it. I snap my face off the tissue it was connected to and feel the titan drop to the ground. I then rip out of the titan I feel coolness of the steam as it burned from the titan until it was all gone. I sat there staring at it and the surrounding the entire time. I sat for at least 3 hours. 

What has my life come to? Why does everybody hate me? Am I just a science experiment to Hange? Is she just nice to me because I'm an experiment? WHY? Why me? Why couldn't it be anybody else in the entire world! Is there anywhere else I could be in the world right now! Other than these stupid walls.