𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲 𝐊𝐢𝐝𝐬 𝐅𝐅𝐬

|𝙸𝚗𝚏𝚎𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢|| 𝐵𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑛

Started:2021/12/27

Word count: 2205

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[A/N: I do not own the poem in the following story, it was taken from Google, thank you]

I waited patiently, seated in the bathroom counter, my anxiety eating me up.

Beep beep

I saw only one line. I sighed. This is the 4th time we are trying.

Chan already went to work, while I was back at home waiting with my test. I sighed in vain.

I slowly dragged my numb body to the dresser and got dressed and left without eating anything.

I was losing hope slowly. Chan wanted to have a family with 3 kids and we tried. Tried so many times. But we always failed.

I went into the office, where he was the boss and I was his secretary. I went straight to his office with a glum face, my tears threatening to fall anytime.

I hurriedly went in and slammed the door shut. Chan looked up at me from his paperwork and smiled. I weakly returned a smile but soon I slid down the door and fell on the ground, my tears finally spilling.

Chan rushed to me and hugged me, getting the hint of the result.

"It's okay baby", his voice soothed me down. "We'll try again."

"But for how long, Chan? We have been trying for a year now", I croaked out, the tears messing up my mascara.

His grip around me slightly tightened, the claustrophobic feeling calming me down a bit. I closed my eyes and melted into his hug. His heartbeat slowly calmed me down as the faint sound of ticking was heard. I opened my eyes, numb all over.

I wasn't infertile was I? My heart clenched even more at the thought. No, I wasn't infertile..... But if I wasn't then why aren't successful? Fear and weary took over my body, as I snuggled closer to Chan, almost disappearing into him.

He kissed my temples and helped me get up and I fixed my mascara and went to work.

I sat down with a sigh, not feeling to work at all. "Don't lose hope okay?", was the last I heard from Chan before sitting down at my desk. Don't lose hope......

"Morning Y/N", my best friend Jisoo smiled and placed a take away on my desk.

"Morning", I said, smiling weakly. Jisoo placed a hand on my shoulder,

"Hey anything wrong? You never go inside Mr. Bang's office, unless its really important."

"I-", tears stung my eyes. I took a deep breath and told her. Jisoo looked at me, worried and concerned.

"I think you should get your fertility test done."

I looked at her, my face was pale with fear. Thousands of questions filled up my thought. What if I was really infertile?? What am I supposed to tell Chan?? Would he still sat with me?? How would he react after getting the news??

A hand waved in front of me, snapping me away from my thoughts. It was Jisoo. She was also equally worried.

"I'm telling Mr. Bang that we are going to the hospital.", she said and soon after, her heels clicked to his room. I didn't feel like going. What I am infertile?? It could be that I was fertile enough and there was some medication that could help me bear a baby? Everything right now was 50 - 50. My chances of being infertile, my chances of being a mom, Chan leaving me, Chan staying with me......