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Some of my inside feelings.
*translated from Hebrew to English*

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[ July 17th, 2021 ]

Another day, more words to say. I have to admit, everytime that the thoughts show up, I'm smiling. They ask me, "why the smile? ", I have to lie for not to get hurt. But to tell you for real, I'm feeling good with my endless thoughts. Only makes me to feel that I can't wait to see you, I wish, really do. There's no day that I won't imagine, stare, dream. And this is a promise. You know you can count on me no matter what. In general I would be happy if you were here... It feels lonely here. Well, anyway there's no way that it will actually happen. But at least the thoughts and imaginations fills the hole of the loneliness. And it makes me feel good with myself. I want you to understand that you're really important to me. If you don't know... I was the most happiest if the imagination was reality. Reality, but way better. This is what that will make me really happy. But I'll get satisfied with my imagination. For example, we're both dancing under the pale city's rain, both of us at the top of the tower... You know all of this... But anyway I'm thankful for you entering my life. You're are special. It's like we're sharing so many things together;  we're both having PTSD, monophobia taking over us, lifes that are hard to handle. But we're fighting and not giving a hand for winning of that nature. We're way stronger than that. We're like two sides, that's why the word "togetherness", is the word that makes the together stronger. Together is power. Together is happiness. No one will prevent from us living and loving. Stay strong. ♡

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