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{ 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 | #10 }

Some of my inside feelings.
*translated from Hebrew to English*

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[ August 11th, 2021 ]

It's so hard, so hard, and difficult to me. I've had enough from everything. I'm keeping private stuff of others quietly while they take mines and say them out loudly. I'm seriously done. It's not fair, people get in things that aren't related about them. It's not okay. Always I'm the one to get the bad and the karma. They're going to shout at me and to get angry on me about things that I love, things that aren't related to their life's. I'm a person and not a slave, I'm feeling bad. I'm not safe here. The levels of me having enough gets higher. I'm sick of this. So sick of this. Today I was supposed to say, "today is gonna be okay" but people has to ruin everything! My day is just ruined and it didn't even came from dark night to day light. I'm just disappointed in everything. No one knows how much disappointed I am right now. I'm just fucking done. I want to run away, I've had enough being in a place that's not good for me and being trapped here. I want to go forward, not to let others to control me. But they're a little more stronger than me. My day is fucking ruined. I've had enough of everything and everyone. I want to run away so badly, to a place I'm wanted in. There are some places I can go, but there's no way to get to the place I wanna go to. And it hurts. It just hurts that I'm living in a place with no rights. It's pretty illegal, but no one cares. They have rules of themselves. I'm so so done. I now need you the most, take me with you to a world I'm wanted in, make me feel loved and appreciated... I'll not let them to turn me into a slave with no rights to live as I want to. I want to be with surroundings that won't get mad at me, people that would need me. To be with people that won't get mad at anything good I feel I'm doing for myself,and that won't get involved in my personal life's. I want to live silently...
I just wanna feel loved.. Loved with no Terms. Please come as fast as you can before I collapse here..

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