5SOS Preferences

Shutting Him Out

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Luke: scrolling through your twitter you couldn’t count how much hate you were getting. It would have been simpler to count how many tweets weren’t hate, if you could find them that is. Normally you quite enjoyed the fans. You would even go on tumblr to talk to some on there and go through all the tags and see many blogs defending you but some days there was an explosion of fans who didn’t want you. You were getting all sorts of tweets such as ‘Go cut yourself @Y/t/n’ and ‘I hope you fall sick and die you ugly bitch’ but a certain tweet caught your eye which sent you over the top.‘I hope you are proud you are holding Luke back. You’re a selfish bitch, leave him now and let him get on with his career’ It felt like your heart stopped. Reminding yourself to breathe you ran to the bathroom and locked the door. You didn’t hold him back did you? No of course not. But then again if he didn’t spend so much time with you then he could spend more time with the boys rehearsing. Don’t be ridiculous! But it’s true! Your thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the bathroom door. “Y/n?” you heard Luke’s soft voice asking through the door. When you didn’t reply he knocked again “Y/N, open up please. Don’t shut me out, we can talk about this!” getting up from sitting on the floor you opened the door while looking down. “Hey,” Luke said lifting your chin up so you looked at him in the eye. “What’s wrong?” he asked. You couldn’t bring yourself to say anything. You open your mouth to speak but more sobs escape. Luke took you into a hug pulling you close. “Whatever it is we can work through it together,” “But that’s the thing,” you coked out. “Together, your fans don’t want us together” “It’s not up to them. It’s up to us. If they don’t like it then they will have to live with it ok?” you nodded, “If you are ever upset please talk to me about it. Don’t lock yourself in the bathroom, I hate it when you cry and I can’t get to you,” “I promise I won’t do it again”

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Calum:  You had a troubled past. Things happened in your life you didn’t want to talk about. You had your walls built around you. The only person who could ever come close to seeing what was behind them was Calum. But you knew he would never reach there. You made it your mission to make sure no one ever reached past your walls of safety because if anyone ever did they would own you, if they did then your walls would have to get higher if they ever left causing your past to become worse. “Y/n. Tell me what’s wrong” Calum said to you one day while you were sat together watching TV, “I don’t understand, nothing is wrong.” You replied confused. “I don’t mean right now Y/N, what’s wrong all together. What’s happened in your past to make you act in some ways that you do? You flinch when someone lifts their arm, you have night mares all the time and when we talk I feel like at some points I lose you and you aren’t listening.” “Calum I don’t want to talk about it” you said standing up and leaving the room. Sighing Calum followed and said, “We don’t have to, but please know that I will always be here if you need to ever talk. And I promise I won’t leave afterwards if you do ever decide to talk to me” “I can’t tell you right now. However in the future when the time is right if I feel like I can tell you I will and that’s a promise” Calum walked forward and kissed your forehead. “I look forward to it” he said smiling at you.

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Michael: “Get out!” you shouted at Michael; “Get out!” you repeated. He finally got the message and left. You ran to the front door, not to tell him to come back but lock the door behind him. You two had gotten into a fight, a pretty big fight, things had been thrown around the room and smashed, voices were raised and both of you were red and out of breath. It took a long time after Michael had left for you to finally calm down however you were still mad at him and you knew if he came back your anger would also. It had been a few hours when you heard a knock at the door. “Y/N it’s me, open the door, I’m sorry for being such a dick, please let me in.” you didn’t move from your seat. “Please Y/N it’s starting to rain! I’m sorry!” you still didn’t budge. Turning the TV up louder you ignored his pleads from outside. You saw his figure retreating from the window in the front door only to hear his voice now at the kitchen door. “Y/N! I know you can hear me, let me in!” turning off all the lights you went upstairs to your room. You could feel your anger for Michael leaving as it amused you that he was trying to back inside the house. While getting changed for bed you could hear a grunting noise coming from the bathroom, confused you decided to go investigate, you opened the door to see Michael half way through the bathroom window laughing you realised you had left it open. “Y/n, help me, I’m stuck” Michael asked while trying to wriggle his way further in. walking over you grabbed both of his arms and pulled. You pulled a little too hard and you and Michael were a heap on the bathroom floor both laughing with tears at the situation. “Although this is funny Y/N, please can we never fight like this again,” you nodded in agreement and you both helped each other off the floor.

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Ashton: Previous relationships never worked in your favour. For example you were once deep in love with this boy to find out you were a bet and your whole relationship had been a lie to see how far you would go. On that day you swore you would never let another person come that close, especially a male. But Ashton had you questioning your decision but you knew one day he would break your heart. When you two got too close you decided to cut all ties with him. He would text, he would call but you would never respond. Confused he went to your house where your mother let him in knowing that you two needed to talk. Sitting in your room you heard a knock and you told whoever it was to enter. You gasped when you saw it was Ashton. “Y/n, what’s happened, why won’t you reply to any of my texts or return any of my calls?” you just shook your head in response, “No? No what? Y/n talk to me!” he said more forceful. Walking closer to you, you shifted to the other side of your bed getting as far away as you could from him. “What have I done wrong?” he said now clearly upset, if you weren’t mistaken you could even say his eyes were beginning to water. “Nothing Ash, at least not yet.” “So you are ignoring me for something I haven’t even done?” you nodded, “That is stupid! How do you even know I will do it then?” “Because all you boys are the same! You treat us like you care, like you want to be the one for us but once we let you in you just throw us to the ground like a piece of dirt!” Ashton’s face softened, “Y/n I would never. Never ever. I care for you too much to ever hurt you like that. I can prove it, just let me in and I can prove that I’m different to them other guys,” Unsure you agreed finally knowing in the future you may regret this decision. He came and sat on the bed with you holding you from the side, “Does this mean we are ‘together’ now?” he asked hopefully, you chuckled slightly, “I guess it does”