EMBRACING REALITY

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

Hey guys, typing after a month long time I guess.. I hope you remember what happened in the previous part.. I request you to read what happened once and come back to this one.. Please share your views below.. It would really mean the world to me..
Let’s begin..
Sidharth was in his zone.. Shehnaaz signaled Mom to leave him in the room and the ladies went out..
“Bache, kya chal raha hai tere dimag me.?” Asked Mom..
“Maa, wo har baar mera mood sahi karta hai jab mai low feel karti hu.. Abhi usko thodi der Rehne dete hai.. Thik karenge hum usko.. Wo hamesha meri pasand ki cheez banwata hai mere liye.. Mai chahti hu hum uske liye sab special banaye.. Wo abhi sochta rahega.. Kaise samjhaenge nai pata, lekin abhi ke liye hum uske liye Acha kuch banate hai..” said Shehnaaz..
Mom agreed.. “Sahi bol rahi hai..”
Shehnaaz then again said, “Mai janti hu wo bacha nai hai.. Ye sab bhot choti cheez hogi uske liye.. Lekin kar lete hai.. Abhi kisi ko bolo mat, hum dono hi rehte hai uske pass..”
“Bache, zyada soch mat.. Wo already over thinking ka kaam kar raha hai.. Tu plan kar mai tere sath hu, mai wada karti hu mai hut ere sath.. Hum usko is halat se mil ke nikalenge..” said Mom which made Shehnaaz feel a bit better and she also gained confidence as she got full support from Rita Maa..
They went into the kitchen, chopped the necessary veggies for making Pav Bhaji..
“Mai apne hath se banati hu, tu cake pe dhyan de..” said Mom who loved her son more than anyone else..
Both the ladies wished to give their best for Sidharth.. He has always made sure that the ladies of his life had a perfect life and hence now when he was in a sad zone they both decided to make him feel better..
They knew Sidharth was a man of words.. Small dinner prep and food wont do the needful what the words will..
Shehnaaz prepared a cake which he could eat along with his workout.. She knew how much junk he was supposed to consume and he was already about to have pav bhaji in which mom had added extra butter to make it exactly like he loved so being a perfect wife, she baked a cake which wont harm his diet..
Once the ladies were done cooking, Mom sent Shehnaaz inside the bedroom, “Bache, tu jaa uske pass.. Thodi der baith.. Usse baat kar.. Mai dawai li hu isliye zara susti aa gayi hai.. Dinner ko abhi time hai.. Tab tak mai araam karti hu aur thoda sochti hu ki mai Sidharth se kya baat karungi..” said Mom and Shehnaaz agreed…
On the other hand, Sidharth had fallen asleep during this time.. Shehnaaz sat on the chair next to his side of the bed.. She touched the pillow and it was wet which proved that he had cried and later fallen asleep..
Shehnaaz ran her fingers in his hair and he instantly woke up.. ‘Shehnaaz!” He cooed and pulled her closer.. He made her sit on the edge of the bed and snuggled into her lap like a child..
“I am sorry Shehnaaz.. I am responsible for all this.. I am really sorry Sweetheart..” Blurted out Sidharth..
Shehnaaz didn’t stop him.. She let him speak whatever came into his mind at that moment.. Sidharth continued, “Baby, Maine nai socha tha ki meri wajah se hum parents nai ban payenge.. I really wished to be a father so much.. I wanted to see you as a mother.. But..” Sidharth stopped, snuggling more into her waist..
Shehnaaz decided to speak once he was done, “Sidharth, tujhe aur kuch bolna hai? Kuch hai tere dil me jo bola nai hai, abhi bol de.. Jab tera ho jayega bol ke, fir mai bolungi..” said Shehnaaz..
Sidharth just nodded which meant he didn’t want to say anything more so Shehnaaz finally spoke, her words were discussed with mom earlier while cooking.. She knew what she was going to say and why..
Mom and Shehnaaz had spoken to Shehnaaz’s Gynac as well and hence She was prepared mentally as well as physically to speak to Sidharth..
“Meri baat sun, pehle uth ke baith.. Mere pass hi reh lekin meri aankho me dekh.. Please Bebu..” cooed Shehnaaz and Sidharth obeyed..
Shehnaaz handed him a glass of water and pressed her lips on his forehead for a little long and took some water in her hand, cleaned Sidharth’s face which had dried tears. She then wiped his face with a hand towel and looked into his swollen half red eyes..
“Tu mujhpe bharosa karta hai?” was the first statement made by Shehnaaz which had a deep meaning..
Trust is one of the major factors which keep the relationship of two people alive, which makes two people be their own selves without being cautious.. Sidharth knew that conversation would turn out to be a serious one as he understood the depth of the word Trust and what it means in a relationship, specially their relationship, which was different from his past relationships..
“Haa, apne aap se zyada trust karta hu.. Mom ke baad agar kisi pe bharosa hai toh wo tu hai..” said Sidharth without breaking the eye contact..
Shehnaaz smiled a little and his heart skipped a beat looking at her small but beautiful smile.. That’s what made their relationship special and unique.. No matter what their moods were, one smile on their partner’s face brought a smile on their face too..
Her smile didn’t stay for long and she continued the conversation.. “Bharosa hai, toh meri baat dhyan se sun.. Pregnancy ke bare me maine Doctor se detail me ek hafte se baat kar rahi hu.. Mujhe doctor se bho knowledge mili hai.. Abhi doctor ne aisa kuch nai bole hai ki mai Maa nahi ban sakti.. Period abhi sirf 4 din late hai.. Hume kam se kam 7 din wait karna chahiye tha.. Humne jaldi test kiya hai.. Tu itna toot jayega ye maine nai socha tha.. Lekin ab bas.. Tu apne aap ko blame karna band kar.. Hum 3 din baad firse test kar sakte hai.. Meri baat samjh aur bharosa rakh.. Mai aiwai google pe research kar ke nai bol rahi hu, proper gynac se baat kari hu.. Pregnancy Hormone form hone me thoda time lagta hai.. Tu mayus hona aur apne aap ko blame karna band kar.. Abhi kisi doctor ne aisa nai bole hai ki hum maa baap nahi ban sakte.. Wahe Guru sab acha karenge.. Tu aise toot mat jaa.. Mai aur Maa tujhe aise nai dekh sakte.. Hum bho pyaar karte hai tujhse.. Aur meri latest reports me iron pehle se badha hai lekin abhi aur badhna zaruri hai warna baby weak hoga agar mai pregnant ho bhi gayi toh.. Isliye doctor ka bhi suggestion hai ki hum bas 2 se 3 mahina aur rukna chahiye fir uske baad try karna chahiye.. Aur ha, jis hisab se abhi tu over thinking ke zone me gaya hai, maine Dr. Srijana se bhi appointment fix ki hu.. Ek baar unse mil lenge toh cheese aur clear hogi..” said Shehnaaz..
All this while, their eye contact was on point.. No one looked away.. They didn’t realize when the conversation from Shehnaaz’s side ended but her words happened to heal him a little as expected by herself and Mom..
Sidharth pulled her in a hug as she stopped talking and she felt his world come back together in his arms.. That was the time when Shehnaaz broke down.. Looking at Sidharth break down like that wasn’t easy for her.. Sidharth knew somehow that she would break done after calming him down..
Sidharth pulled her closer and rubbed her back up and down and pressed his lips on her exposed shoulder softly..
“Bas, bas.. Ab mai shant ho raha hu na.. Fir tu aise rahegi toh mai firse roh dunga.. Mujhe nai pasand rona.. Mai rulane wala me se hu, remember!” joked Sidharth earning a smack on his arm and she smiled within the tears flowing down from her eyes..
Sidharth pulled her out of the hug and cupped her face with his palm.. He wiped her tears with his thumb and caressed her cheeks softly, “Hum sath hai toh har achi buri cheez sath me face kar sakte hai.. I had gone into that zone.. Abhi bhi hu thoda bhot but your words have got myself back a little.. I am feeling better than before.. I will be stronger in the coming days..” said Sidharth.. His healing words made her tears to stop flowing and her lips curved into a smile..
“Ye hui na baat.. Ab chal fresh ho jaa.. Maa ke pass chal.. Humne tere liye special dinner banaye hai mil  ke..” said Shehnaaz, in her happy voice, getting back into her bubbly self which Sidharth loved the most..
He smiled and agreed, went into the loo and Shehnaaz went into the kitchen, asked Kamla Tai to heat the Bhaji and also shallow fry the Pav in lots of butter as instructed by Mom and then went into Mom’s room..
She sat on the floor and held Mom’s hand softly.. Her touch woke mom and she saw a smiling face with a little drops of tears on her face.. This was enough for mom to understand what might have happened..
Mom didn’t say anything.. She just got up and hugged her tightly, “Meri bachi.. Sambhal li na mere bache ko..” said mom and Shehnaaz just nodded her head..
She stopped sobbing, pulled out of the hug and smiled widely, “Fresh ho jao aap.. Sidharth aata hi hoga bas.. Thoda better feel kar raha hai.. Baaki kal Dr. Srijana se baat karenge toh aur better lagega..” said Shehnaaz and Mom Agreed..
Promo- Family time spent together.. The trio.. Later, a meaningful conversation among SidNaaz and Srijana.. Stay Tuned
Please comment down your thoughts about this chapter.. I will be waiting for your reviews.. Please don’t ask when the next chapter.. I am taking one step at a time and hence I really don’t know how will be feeling tomorrow.. Thank you for your patience and wishing all the amazing things for my easy pregnancy and my little one..
Also, I don’t know how many more chapters will be in Embracing Reality.. But I can assure you I won’t be showing anything negative.. I’m being as real as possible.. Pregnancy takes a lot of efforts and hardships and happiness as well..
I will write till the time my health will allow me to.. I will try to type whenever possible..
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