EMBRACING REALITY

CHAPTER 11 EMBRACING REALITY

CHAPTER 11
Sidharth thought to tell Shehnaaz about what was happening.. He pulled her closer in his arms, “Meri Jaan, you don’t have to worry. I have managed everything. Tu thik hai.. Promise me, you won’t be stressed if I’ll tell you what’s happening.” Said Sidharth and she instantly got scared..
“Sidharth., hua kya hai?” asked Shehnaaz.. “Promise, baby..” said Sidharth.. “I promise mai stress nai lungi. Ab bol.” Said Shehnaaz.. “Baby, your hemoglobin is low and your iron levels and vitamins in the body are also low..” said Sidharth, pulling her even closer.. Shehnaaz felt this was normal and has happened before as well.. “Han toh isme tension wali kya baat hai.. ye toh mujhe hamesha hota hai na..” said Shehnaaz..
“Shehnaaz, we are not planning our baby because of this..” Said Sidharth and Shehnaaz’s face dropped.. She felt numb and silent.. She didn’t know what to feel..
Sidharth knew he had hidden about her health condition with her.. Hiding about keeping a fast for him was a small thing in front of this.. “Mera Bacha, calm down.. Please.. I told you I have handled everything. Meri doctor se sab baat ho gayi hai.. You will be absolutely fine, my love..” cooed Sidharth, pulling her closer and wiping her tears..
“Sidhaaarrthh..” The only word which came out of her mouth and she dig her face in his chest.. She cried, legit.. Sidharth didn’t stop her for a while..
“Shehnaaz.. Please, shush baby.. Stop crying. Please..” cooed Sidharth.. Her jewelry was hurting her.. She pulled out of the hug and removed the Mangalsutra she was wearing..
“Sidharth..” she called for help.. He helped her taking off the Mangalsutra.. “Mai ye deserve hi nahi karti.. Mai sahi hu hi nahi..” said Shehnaaz..
Sidharth kept his calm.. “Shehnaaz, relax.. Please calm down.. You really need to be patient.. Please trust me darling..” said Sidharth, as he took off the Mangalsutra and kept it in the cupboard..
Shehnaaz lay on the bed and Sidharth scooped her in his arms as he lay next to her, holding her from behind.. He patted her head softly and made her sleep.. He knew she would need rest since she was fasting..
He called mom once she was in deep sleep and told her everything that happened.. “Relax bache, I am thankful that you didn’t burst out at her.. Let me tell you one thing, being a mother is a very important part of a woman’s life.. Shehnaaz has got to know the reason why you have postponed your child will hit her in a bad way bache.. I am busy with Karwachauth preparations here at Preeti’s house.. I want you to be with her. She is very strong.. Make her believe that you won’t be leaving her alone in this.. She will think that she is at fault.. Just be with her bache.. Out of everyone, she needs you the most right now.. I am with you son, just be with my little daughter and everything will be fine.” Said Mom..
Sidharth needed this.. Mom’s words always heal everyone. At this moment, Sidharth knew Shehnaaz was his responsibility and he definitely loved her to the core.. But he needed support too.. Mom was his support even when she was not in his house at that moment.. He agreed and disconnected the call..
Sidharth’s phone rang and it was the doctor. “Ma’am I’ve told her about her condition. She is fasting for me without letting me know. I got to know and she started apologizing. I told her why we are postponing the pregnancy.” Said Sidharth, venting out everything, absent mindedly..
Sidharth has never been in this situation before and he never knew something like this existed. Mrs. Gupta understood and asked him to calm down.. “Shehnaaz ka jo test hua tha do din pehle, uske reports sham tak aa jaenge. I will call you once I’ll see it. You be with her.” Said Mrs. Gupta and Sidharth agreed..
Shehnaaz woke up after a while and found herself curled up in Sidharth’s arms.. He pressed his lips on her nose, “Uth gayi baby.” Cooed Sidharth..
Shehnaaz stayed shut. She went to the loo and Sidharth went to Rita Maa’s room and got a small gift hamper for her. Shehnaaz walked out of the loo and saw the little hamper on the bed. Sidharth had folded the quilt and the gift was shining as it was covered in glitter..
“Shehnaaz, baby come here, darling..” cooed Sidharth, coaxing her with all the sweet names.. Shehnaaz looked at him, the gift didn’t matter to her..
ABHI MUJH ME KAHI, BAAKI THODI SI HAI ZINDAGI. JAGI DHADKAN NAYI, JANA ZINDA HU MAI TOH ABHI..
Sidharth walked towards where she was standing and took her hands in his as he dragged her towards the bed.. She sat on the edge and he sat on the floor, resting his head on her lap. “Sab acha ho jaega Shehnaaz.. Please stop worrying.. Mai hu na tere sath.. Koi aisa waisa khayal leke mat aa apne man me.. Tujhe stress lena bhi mana hai.. You will be fine, sweetheart..”
KUCH AISI LAGAN, IS LAMHE ME HAI, YE LAMHA KAHA THA MERA.. AB HAI SAMNE, ISE CHU LU ZARA, MAR JAU YA JEE LU ZARA..
“Baby, I am with you. Please, say something. Aise chup rahegi toh mai kya karunga. Meri jaan, mera bacha hai na tu..” cooed Sidharth.. Shehnaaz’s numbness was acceptable.
“I am sorry, Sidharth.” Said Shehnaaz.. She rested her head on Sidharth’s.
KHUSHIYA CHOOM LU, YA RO LU ZARA, MAR JAU YA JEE LU ZARA.. ABHI MUJHME KAHI, BAKI THODI SI HAI ZINDAGI.
“Tu sorry kyu bol rahi hai baby.. It’s not your fault my love..  It can happen to anyone.. Please, don’t blame yourself Shehnaaz..” said Sidharth..
Getting up from her lap, he opened the hamper.. “My love, get ready. You fasted for me, for my long life.. Don’t get the negativity around you.. Shehnaaz, ye jo tujhe hua hai wo curable hai. Hum sab tera dhyan rakh rahe hai. I promise we will conceive in the coming few months.” Said Sidharth..
“Mai bachi nai hu jo sab mera dhyan rakhenge. Mai tere liye sahi hu hi nahi. Door reh mujhse. Tu mere liye perfect hai, lekin mai tere liye perfect nai hu. Mai tujhe teri zindagi ki khushi dene me late kar rahi hu. Tu mujhe bina bole sab kar deta hai.” said Shehnaaz, drifting away from him.
Sidharth held her back in his arms, “Chup ho jao tum. Perfect nai ho aisa mat bolo. Meri zindagi basti hai tumhare andar, samjh aaya.” Said Sidharth, gritting his teeth, not wanting to get angry..
Shehnaaz cried, getting away from him.. “Nai Sidharth, meri Mami sach kehti thi. Mai pyaar deserve hi nai karti, mai sach me unlucky hu. Pehle moti thi toh problem thi, abhi patli hoke bhi problem ho rahi hai. Mujhme hi koi kami hai.” said Shehnaaz, sitting on the high chair next to the bed..
“Shehnaaz, please, stop thinking crap. This is absolute crap. Please. I don’t want to shout at you, my love. I am trying to be as patient as I can. I am highly pissed off at the things you have just said, mai nai bol raha kuch. Vent out all you want but please, don’t you dare call yourself unlucky. I am telling you.” Said Sidharth, holding her hand and staying away at the same time.
“Tujhe space chahiye, lele. Lekin aisi baate mat bol. You are my wife, my life partner, you are my pride. You are a producer. Shehbaaz ka gana aaega. You should be proud of yourself.” Said Sidharth..
Shehnaaz knew, staying away from him was not what she wanted. She needed her man. “Sidhaaarth..” She cooed and opened her arms.. “Mera Bacha..” cooed back Sidharth, taking her in his arms..
He was surprised at himself for being so calm. He knew he would explain things to Shehnaaz about what she said earlier about her mami being right and stuff like that.. At that moment, as said by Rita Maa, she just needed Sidharth..
Sidharth knew well how to love her.. He held her tight and she wasn’t crying.. It was a good sign.. “Mai apna pura dhyan rakhungi.. Teri, Maa ki, doctors ki, sabki Baat maanungi aur ye vitamins level sahi karungi. Hamare liye, hamare bache ke liye.. I promise Sidharth.” Said Shehnaaz..
“I know my love; you are not alone.. Jo Tera test hua tha uski reports aaj shaam tak aaengi.. Mail ke through.. Abhi, tu araam kar. Fir ready ho ja.. Mere baby ka fast Mai apne hatho se todunga..” said Sidharth, lifting her up in his arms and settling on the bed.. She was clung to her..
Sidharth kept rubbing her back and pressing his lips on her neck, her forehead and her nose.. “Shehnaaz, tujhe punishment milegi.. Jo bhi tune socha, bola uske liye..” said Sidharth..
Shehnaaz pulled out of his neck but stayed close, “I am sorry.” Sidharth put a finger on her lips, “Ek dm chup. Meri sun ab.. Bhot bol li.” Said Sidharth, Shehnaaz got a little scared.. He continued, “Khabardar kabhi apne aap ko unlucky bola toh.. Mujhe Naaz hai tujh par. Puri family ko Naaz hai tujh par.. Please, you are my lifeline, so never ever call yourself imperfect.” Said Sidharth, in a little straight voice..
He looked at her sad expressions and softened a little, he cupped her face and rubbed her palm on her cheeks and said, “I can’t listen to such stuff for you, I love you. Sweetheart.” He said and his words brought a little smile on her face..
What will the reports say about Shehnaaz condition? How will things be? Stay Tuned.

My Note.
Guys, trust me real me aisa hi hota hai. Shehnaaz se aap shayad abhi relate na kar pao. Abhi Shehnaaz alag zone me hai. Don’t judge her and try to understand what I’m trying to portray here.
I will be showing how they have become mature. Abhi unnecessary jhagde nai hoenge. All care, love and emotions hoenge isme..
Being a mother is something very precious for women and when Sidharth told her that they postponed their child because of her she took it in a different way. Don’t judge her for that. I am trying to be as real as possible with this Embracing Reality. Let me know your views please.