NOT ANYMORE

true feelings

Kook pov:

Today I am gonna ask namjoon hyung some help , he always helped me when it was too overwhelming for me.

    Hoping for a solution for my mixed feelings i made my way to his room knocking at his door as it opened in an instant

  " Oh what brings the maknae here ? You seem sad ..wait are you okay ? Come in"  namjoon hyung said as i did so

" I am fine hyung ..but i wanna ask you something.  I have always had this wierd feelings whenever jimin hyung was too close to me , giving me too much attention and it made me feel really uncomfortable the feelings i felt were really wierd.  And i thought and think it was because i don't like him.  But these days when he doesn't give me attention and cling to me ..i feel hurt or sad something stinging in my heart like a pierce . I don't know what to do or what this is hyung ! I don't know . Please help me . And i think i like taehyung." I mumbled as my eyes brimmed with tears these confused feelings really kills me. 

" Kook-ah can you answer the questions that i am gonna ask?" He asked as i nodded my head

" What do you feel about Jimin or when he was with you ?!" Hyung asked as i looked at him before answering

" It felt really wierd hyung like whenever he touches me I feel like my whole face heat up and a wierd feeling in my stomach and whenever he smiles I can't help the feel again my heart is like it's not beating for few seconds . and whenever he take care of me anything like anything he did it always made me feel that" I said honestly

" Now why you tell you like tae ?! Tell me how you know it's love?" Namjoon hyung asked again

" Umm...he plays games with me and he always speaks about things I like like he also like those things and he is handsome and cute and funny ..isn't it love hyung?" I asked

" No, it's not love it's just a friendly way the one who you love is Jimin . Listen carefully kook do you feel safe and secure when you are with jimin or tae, who you feel more safe with? " He asked when I think about it when I felt down or anything I felt strength and safe from only one that is ... exactly jimin hyung

" It's jimin hyung " he hummed " now what if one day tae loves someone ?!" I ...idk what to say ...maybe I will give up and be friends.

" Maybe be friends " he hummed again . " Now think of jimin being so in love with other person who isn't you?!" He asked ..why I feel angry,jealous ,sad..?!

" I ...I feel angry sad and maybe...jealous" I said low voice.

" Problem solved the one you love is Jimin and tae is like your friend who likes same things as you like a bestfriend.  And it's totally fine to be confused in your age finding about your sexuality and liking is a hard job.  But the thing is you should accept what your heart feels . Don't take too much time kook , otherwise jimin will love someone else  " he said teasingly .

"NO! um ..like no he wouldn't he loves oh no loved me " I said sadly.

" What are you saying kook loved you ,did you know he loved you?" He asked

" Hyung don't get mad at me please, after this ...I ..you said right what I feel is love but I thought I don't like him and always told so harsh stuffs and always ignored ,avoided ,teased and didn't respected him as hyung , and one day he proposed to me hyung telling all his feelings but I ...I just told him that I never loved him and never will and he is just a hoe flirting with all people and mostly criticized him . I myself don't know why i used such harsh words hyung.  I really didn't meant those words.  I was too shocked when he confessed.." I said crying so hard in hyungs chest .

" You really fucked up man , we all know jimin is an angel, cutie , a gift we got .And if you want handsome do you think jimin is not handsome then leave him man I will have him . He can be whatever he want he may seem innocent but he also have feelings anger ,sad everything .if you ever hurt him more I am gonna kill u " he said

" I won't hyung I won't now I know my feelings I will make him fall for me again hyung " I said and went to my room with determination of getting jimin hyung back.

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~and there is another chapter here . I will post other chapters later it's 12.00 a m now I am gonna sleep bye . Thank you for reading ~