Why So Cruel (luberto)

panic attack

I still have a crush of massimo

Luca POV

we opened the door to my old home (yes ik there was no doors in the movie)
And i went inside. I was expecting alberto to come with me but he remained outside the door.

I inhaled as i felt some of the nice memories of my home remenising in my mind. I swam into my bedroom and collected some old stuff that reminds me of old times. Things like some of the human stuff my grandma had and some of my old childhood things.

It was going great and i was happy until. I saw a photo frame which i turned so i could see. It was a photo of my parents.

Wow they looked so happy i thought. And they still would be if i just - no silenzio bruno don't think about it.

I sat in the comfort of my bedroom trying to rid my mind of those stupid bad thoughts.

I didn't want alberto to come in and see me crying I've already caused enough stress for him.

I don't deserve him...he does so much for me and all i can do is be weak...i failed him and i failed my parents i don't even deserve to be here.

I felt myself starting to hyperventilate and decided mabey it was time to leave. But what about alberto? I don't want him to see me like this again.

I swam out the back door and made a different way up to the island hoping he wouldn't come looking for me.

I dried off and turned back into my human form. I could still feel myself hyperventilating and my vision was blurred by tears.

My mind was being flooded with bad thoughts as i sunk to the sandy floor unable to move. Unable to think straight . (Lol relatable cuz I'm gay and stuff)

God i hated this why couldn't i just be normal. Why did i have to be such a burden. I was i even born..(um ok y/n 🙄💅)

I was caught up in my thoughts when i felt a pair of arm wrap around me.

Alberto POV:

I had been waiting for luca outside for around 20 minutes now, i had decided to not go in as i figured he may of needed some alone time.

I waited forever until i finally decided to enter the home. Hearing faint sobs i paniced and raced around to his bedroom. Exept by the time i had made it he was gone.

I had a feeling luca may have gone back to the tower assuming i would search the town first. And i was right.

Once i made it to the beach i was paniced to see luca hyperventilating on the floor while mumbling some stuff i couldn't understand.

Alberto: luca..you ok amore?

No awnser.

I knew by now he was in no place to speak and probably didn't even hear me call him so instead i just wrapped my arms around him and held him hoping it would bring some  comfort.

I jolted for a second before hugging me tightly gripping my shirt as he sobbed into my chest still shaking.

Alberto: luca hun you ok what happened in there.

Luca looked down for a bit before looking back up again and his next words put me in a state of heart break

Luca: alberto am i a burden to you

Alberto: no luca no where did you get that idea from i love you your not a burden

I said holding him closer

Luca: well all i do is act weak and I've done nothing to repay you for every thing you do for me

Alberto: luca you don't need to do anything for me it's ok to cry your trying your hardest and your hardest is enough ( wise words alberto we all need to hear that)

Luca: i love you (mumble)

We sat like that for a while until luca had fully stopped shaking  and was able to speak.

After his panic attack we decided it would be best to sleep up in the tower tonight as it was getting late.

I pulled out a makeshift mattress and made it somewhat decent looking.

And then we both crawled into bed drifting asleep in eachothers arm's (bro every chapter be ending with sleep istg im sorry)