the feeling of worthlessness; hoseok centric

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what was he supposed to say to that?

his mouth felt dry and his body felt heavy. jinyoung stared at him with hopeful eyes with his heart in his hands.

he felt his heart swell and more tears made way into his already wet eyes. this felt so genuine and soft. the offer to join the pack coming from the bottom of jinyoung's heart. and it hurt so much to feel so happy.

"you made him cry!" youngjae gasped and went straight into apologising, going so far as to getting on his knees.

youngjae rushed to wipe away hoseok's tears, the others playfully beating jin young up who was still on his knees. "you don't have to accept. don't feel pressured to, we won't change how we feel and see about you if you decline."

oh lord, hoseok could feel more tears fill his eyes. by the end of today, they'd be swollen.

"i'm home, i bought- hoseok?!"mark dropped the bag of oranges and rushed over to the sobbing group.

jackson was now clinging to hoseok's leg and sobbing with him. mouth open wide as he let out ugly cries. "g-god, i don't know what's going on but let's all calm down."

with very much convincing; jinyoung had reluctantly gotten off his knees with a small pout. hoseok breathed in a shaky breath, opening his arms for the alpha.

the group cried, hands gripping each other in an attempt to comfort the other. "i don't know why you're crying but i'll cry as well."

hoseok gripped the back of marks neck with a laugh and buried himself in his shirt.

yeah...

things were going to okay.

"hoseok-ah. will you be part of our pack?" it had been an hour after the tears of joy and confusion. the im pack were all red eyed and had bloated faces. hoseok snorted at how they looked despite knowing he looked the same as they did.

"yes. yes. there's no where else i would want to be than here."there was a small chuckle, a deep giggle and a laugh.

"hey i'm being serious." hoseok scrunched his nose and pushed away yugyeoms pouting lips.

"we know hoseok. you just sound so corny. its cute." jackson grinned up from his lap. a cheeky, teasing smile which brought a small blush upon the omegas cheeks.

"sleep in your own room tonight stupid."

jackson made a small groan of protest as hoseok pushed his head off his lap. "but i thought you loved meeeee.'"

hoseok rolled his eyes and poked at the others chest. "you're dramatic. how'd you deal with him this long guys?" hoseok joked as jinyoung exaggerated a sigh and played along with hoseok.

"okay, okay that's enough." jaebum laughed as he watched bambam and youngjae tickle the still teary-eyed yugyeom. "go wash up and relax. its getting late."

"hoseok-hyung let me sleep in your bed." youngjae was already rolling around in the other omegas bed. hoseok stared blankly before hitting the omega with his pillow.

"don't ask if you're just gonna do it anyways." youngjae poked his tongue out and pulled the elder down to the bed, embracing him tightly.

"ah im so happy you're in our pack. i can't wait to mark you."

hoseok tensed up quickly in youngjae's arm. the other omega pulled back at the spike in hoseok's scent.  the usually soft scent of what could only be a meadow of flowers now smelt like burnt grass.

"hyung? hyung are you okay? d-did i say something wrong? was bringing up marking too soon? im sorry i shouldn't have-"

the omega was quickly quietened with a small kiss to the nose from hoseok.

"it's okay, really, just...yeah a little too soon."

youngjae nodded and hesitantly wrapped his arms around hoseok again. "i'm sorry...i was just really excited.'"

this feeling was nice, hoseok thought to himself as he allowed youngjae to bury his head near his scent glands. it felt nice to be wanted again. felt nice to have feelings reciprocated in full and know that they wouldn't be doubted or become non-existent in the future.

it felt nice to know that this time, hoseok was wanted and loved. and that the feeling of worthlessness, was only temporary.