the feeling of worthlessness; hoseok centric

6

when did nights become this unbearable?

hoseok had found himself crying every night, heart in his throat.

he couldn't eat at all.

he had locked himself in his room, too scared to go outside in fear of walking into taehyung and seokjin. too scared to see namjoon's disgusted face. 'hyung, it's me jimin.' a voice whispered from outside his door. slowly he unlocked his door and opened it, peeping through the small gap. he took the food out of the younger alphas hands shakily, not making eye contact with the other.

he shut the door, locking it and returning back to his last position. the bag of food already forgotten on his desk along with the other bags that had barely been touched.

the bond he had with his pack felt like it was slowly withering away.

'is hoseok here?' seokjin stared down at the beta, glancing towards the betas alpha before he stepped to the side and cocked his head towards the hall.

jackson took notice of how uninterested the alpha looked, noticed how his scent became sour at the mention of hoseok, how the alphas eyes focused on something that wasn't entirely there.

walking into the house with jaebum jackson took one last glance towards the glaring seokjin.

how strange.

'oh my god hoseok.' jackson gasped, bringing the crying beta into his chest. releasing his pheromones, jaebum cradled both betas into his chest. both males trying to calm hoseok down.

'hoseok,' jackson shook the male softly, 'you're coming with us okay?' jaebum, who had already started packing some of hoseok's things growled at the alpha standing at the door way.

'what are you doing with my beta?!' the alphas voice was slightly higher pitched than usual, his face twisted into a look of something between possessive and confused.

there was a thick layer of tension between the four. so thick you could actually feel it even from the other rooms which voices could be heard from.

'he's coming with us.' jaebum barked out, shoving the last of some of hoseoks things into a bag before pulling both betas out of the room, past the now yelling jimin.

'i think the fuck not! give him back!' jimin screeched, taehyung came in with a frantic look. holding onto the raging jimin. 'the fuck is going on here?!'

the growl that was heard didn't come from jaebum, or any of the alphas but from jackson who held the shaking -still sobbing- hoseok. 'we're taking him with us you scum bags...'

taehyung gasped, scowling at the two 'intruders'. 'hoseok.' hoseok shook, moving out of jackson's arms slowly. getting pulled back behind another tall body.

'we're taking him and that's final.' jinyoung snarled out, glaring at the tall alpha. the two held their glaring competition till taehyung scoffed, pushing at the olders chest. 'fucking take him then.'

everything was tense in the im pack house. hoseok currently being coddled by the two omegas and beta while the alphas talked in a separate room with hushed voices. as if they were afraid hoseok would hear them. but it was as if the betas ears cut off from the world.

the sweet words the three males whispered to him went unheard as he stared at his still shaking legs. it scared him how he couldn't hear anything, almost as if he was there but-but wasn't at the same time. he could see and feel everything. but why couldn't he hear the words of comfort he needed the most?

the soft fabric of the blanket did nothing to stop the ongoing panic of his now quiet world. '-ok. -seok. hoseok? hoseok sweetie can you hear me?' a blurry, seemingly watered down voice broke into his ears suddenly. causing a gasp to rip through the room as hoseok flinched and covered his ears.

sounds were exemplified. everything became loud.

'hoseok calm down. count to three okay? deep breathes with me okay?' soothing hands rubbed up and down at his vibrating arms. what was happening to him?

eyes opening he winced before deciding it would be better off if he closed them and kept them closed. his head throbbed, his body like fire, hot to the touch. 'hey sweetie. you're sick right now because your body is tired. you went through a panic attack before and fainted.'

there was so much to process and to be completely honest, hoseok still couldn't understand what was going on. 'hyung...' he felt so sick .

his downfall is only going to continue.