Not Enough

Us > The World

It's always been me and Cherry against the world, but what do you do when the world begins to crumble? The only thing you ever enjoyed, the only thing you depend on, the only thing you cared for and the only thing you loved. What if that's the reason you hurt everyday.

It's hard pretending to be happy about something that rips you apart inside. It's hard to smile for so long when you want to burst into tears. It's hard seeing the person you love.. love someone else so easily. You think doing it often would make it become easier truth is it just becomes worse. When you look at him , I think you should look at me like that. When you smile at him , I wish you smiled at me like that. When you laugh with him, I wish it was me your laughing with. Instead I'm watching from afar , I'm watching from the sidelines. Why him? Was I not good enough? What makes him better than me? Why did you pick him over me? I thought it was us against the world.

It wasn't always like this, there was a time I was genuinely happy.

" Yo ! 4 eyes!" I scream when I see him at our usual spot. He rolls his eyes and makes his way over to me. " Stop screaming you dopey gorilla" . "Yea, yea whatever ," I say " wanna skate?". He doesn't answer instead he just starts skating. " Hey wait up" I call out before joining him. It was 11 at night. We both snuck out every night at this time. It was our normal, our peace. We skated down the streets. Kaoru ahead of me as usual. His pink Sakura hair flowed through the wind beautifully , as the moon illuminated his face. His pale white skin shone under the moonlight. He was perfect. I was so lucky to call him my bestfriend. Even though I have this really big crush on him. I'll tell him soon.

This night in particular was different. We skated down our usual paths doing tricks as we go. Kaoru slid down a ramp and started going down at an uncontrollable speed. I couldn't catch up in tim to help break his fall. When I caught up , he was in someone else's arms. I ran over to him. " you good Kaoru?" He didn't answer he was too busy looking at this mysterious man. He seen my skeptical looks and said " my name is Adam." Before I could respond, Kaoru did. " my name is Cherry" he said flashing a genuine smile at the boy. Cherry? The childhood nickname I gave him. I brushed it off. " my name is Joe, well Kojiro but you can call me Joe"
" okay Joe and Cherry?" We both nodded. "Well I hope to see y'all again" Adam says while winking at Kaoru before skating off.

Little did I know this one interaction could ruin me forever.