When everything was falling apart. 🖤

019

{flash back}

'Bye aunty!'

And i hang up the phone when the door bell rings..
Oh god what if it's jack again...oh godd... my hands started shaking and i'm opening the door very slowly...

'Hi eve..'

Oh crap it's jack's best friend Mitchell 

'hi mitch what are you doing here...'

'i wanted to talk about something..because eve..i..'

'Come in mitch'

'Okay'

The second he is indisde i can smell his parfume oh my that smells good...

'Were do you want to talk?...'

'In the living room maybe?...'

'No..uhmm ..yes okay but uhh...i'm really stressed right now.. mitch...sorry...'

'Don't say sorry it's been a hard time for you eve'

'Yes it is..mitch..yes it is..'

{end of the flash back}

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{eve's pov}

'Oh hi everyone'

'Oh hi eve why do you look so blushy ?'

'Uhmm don't even ask vic.... Just let me have breakfast okay...'

'Okay sorry.. crumpy girl...'

'What???'

'Nothing just have you're breakfast eve..'

'no just say what you wanted to say'

'no eve..let it go okay..it's nothing'

'Vic come on!'

'no!jezus eve! What's wrong with you this morning???!'

'nothing...just... i'm going to me make breakfast...'

I'm walking towards the kitchen..
And then the overthinking starts..awesome...

Why am i like this morning... i'm back together with thomas wich is great..and then in split second i'm almost starting a fight over nothing with vic like... why....ughhh .... Sometimes i just hate myself like the how i act what i do... i mean there is always drama around me and...i make alot of mistakes...
And then at night when i write it down in my journal because my terhapist told me to write down my feellings... i always write the same words.. i'm fine..i'm great...i'm good... just that..
And you know what's even worse that thomas doesn't know about my journal and i never tell him what i spoke  about with my therapist...just because i don't want to hurt him...

'Oh hi baby there you are'

'Oh hi babe'

'What were you thinking about?..'

'Nothing...'

'Come on you can tell me...'

'n..n..no baby it's nothing...'

but then I see from the corner of my eye that I still had both sleeves of my pajamas up shit...  now you see my c*ts...(TW!)

'Hey what's...that?'

quickly i put them down before thomas sees it but it's already too late...

'No..nothing...'

'No let me see eve did you do it again?...'

'No......'

'What do you mean no? I just saw it honey..why???'

'No..'

'Eve come on...'

'You wanna know why i did it again??? Because i'm not happy! And i feel left out..and i hate myself and..and...'

I'm starting to tear up and then the tears stream down my face....great...

'Baby..please don't say that..'

'why??...'

'Because..'

'Because..???'

'Because you're amazing..just the way you are and please don't ever hurt yourself again okay?'

'Y...yes...but i...'

'No promise me babe'

'Okay..i promise...'

It's good that i can lie very well because i'm lying and i don't even care....

{flash back}

'Don't say sorry eve it's been really hard for you these days'

'yes it is..mitch yes it is...'

'But how are you really?'

I'm sitting on the couch and mitch is sitting next to me

'i feel like a sad girl these days..i just miss my dad..so....i i..i miss him so much...mitch..you don't even know how much...'

Great..i'm crying again...

'Hey hey..look at me eve..hey..'

I look up at mitch..with the tears still   in my eyes..

'i i..i..i..i don't know how to...get..trough this...i didn't want this....'

'Eve look at me you're gonna be okay i promise , i'm gonna help you trough it okay..?'

'You..you..are?...'

'yes ofcourse were friends...'

'But jack he is...your best friend'

'Well srew that.. i know what i'm gonna say now is wrong but eve i'm in love with you since the day we met'

'What?????....'

And before i knew it i'm kissing the bestfriend of my ex boyfriend...

{end of the flash back}

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Well well... what is going to happend betweeten mitch and eve in the flash backs🤔And what's gonna happend next?In the present with thomas and eve 🤔 maybe a wedding?maybe not???😂🤔

Read it in the next chapter! Bye! Xxx

Oh and i'm so so sorry for my english but it's not ny first launge so i'm sorry if you can't understand it 😅😅😅  but i'm using a translater now sometimes soo that's something ;)) Xxxx